Hey Kay,

The pleasure is all mine. Thank you for your delicate and elegant approach. For your mighty patience.
From the other side, I want to apologise for the stubbornness. Reason for that was the great will to reach the gate.

I'm deeply grateful.

Much love,

Kamil

Hi Kay.

I hope you are over your exhaustion .

Not really Kay. Seeing 'separate self' is an illusion is clear only while looking/practising. During the day, 'I' and its struggles emerge for most of the time. There is no experience that life is happening to no-one.

Just an example of how you have ...

Hello Kay,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?

In Actual Experience the only 'I' that exist is a thought. When examined it is impossible to find separate self/entity. Thought 'I' claims to be the one who sees, hears, thinks, talks, walks ...

Hello Kay,

Once again I want to apologise for a delay. The truth is I'm worn out. I haven't slept too much lately and I do not want to write in that condition. I'm off the day after tomorrow. I'll post then.

Love,

Kamil

Hey Kay,

Has it been clearly seen that there is no separate individual (“I/me”), and never has been?

The only 'I' which exists is thought. A story of me. 'I' is a commentary to Actual Experience and with this comments it lays claim to be in possession of own part of life. Statements such as: 'I ...

Instead of pressing 'preview', I pressed 'submit' button.

Kay it so amazing to SEE all of it! And at the same time it's nothing extraordinary! Like nothing happened. Simply because there is nobody here. There is no-one doing anything. 'I' is a thought. The whole concept of person and his/her life ...

Hi Kay,

And what is it exactly that suggests it’s a process? Could that also be a thought?

Yes, it is a thought.

Any actual experience of one event following another? Any experience of one moment giving way to the next? Just look at 'this moment', can you find a point where it began, or where ...

Hey Kay,

Lovely, Kamil! Just don’t have expectations on how things should be. When you saw that Santa Claus was not real….did life change? Maybe some expectations subsided because you knew there was no Santa Claus who left presents under the tree. However, life went on. Christmas comes and goes ...

Hello Kay,

On the 9th of February when I was writing an email to you I SAW that everything else apart from colour, sensation, taste, smell and sound is a thought. It was very clear. Profound lightness and relaxation emerged. During next few days I was busy with other things, but the relaxation ...

Hey Kay.

I couldn't do any reading at the weekend. I'm back now. I'll post something in a day or two.

Love,

Kamil

Hello Kay.

I'm just writing to let you know that I've been reading our conversations from the beginning. Just as you asked for. I stopped at the following exercise:

Sit for about 30 minutes and notice the arising thoughts. Just let them appear as they appear. Try your best to COMPLETELY ignore ...

Hey Kay,

Going through the 'gateless gate' is a beginning, not and ending. It took me many months of continual LOOKING after gating for the constant knowing that there is no self to come into place. I can't say how long it will take for you...but seeing the the illusory self during this ...

Hi Kay.

What I would like for you to do now is to go back and read your entire thread from start to finish. Have a look a the exercises given and questions asked and if there is anything that you are not clear about, let me know and we can look at it again.

Ok. I'll do it.

I just have a ...

Hello Kay.

Something happened today Kay. :) I checked my phone in the morning while at work. I was reading your questions, LOOKING at them.

What does permanent liberation look like? What is it exactly that is waiting for "permanent liberation" and "no self to return"? What does 'no self ...

Hi Kay,

And what would this experience that you are waiting for look and feel like?

I do not know. An 'aha moment'. A clarity. Maybe a relief. When I read testimonials of other people it is definitely something recognisable.

What does the word ‘experience’ mean to you?

That's the thing. I ...