Hi Sarah

Here is where “I” am up to … but I’m finding it increasing difficult to say anything … words seem to be more like a ‘playing around’. I can try and enter into the game, but as soon as anything is said, it is seen not to be so.

Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all ...

Hi Sarah

Seeking has come to an end. It's futility has been seen. Has the narrow path been found? Who knows!

Many, many thanks for your time and input.

Simon

... plus the "head" and the "bottom" are just labels for particular experience ...

Hi S
very difficult with the eyes open - seeing dominates, Can you combine the seeing exercise with the touching?
OK. So I may have made progress with this - see the last para below. Looks like expectation was getting in the way.

I don't know how to let go. That door is not yet open. There is no ...

Hi Sarah

What is the state of no-focus/no-attention?
Well can you chose to be attentive or not? Can you control attention in anyway?
Good point. Nope.

Onto touch:
Touch the table (or any object) with your eyes shut (or open). Pretend like it’s the first time you have ever touched a table. Go ...

Think of a tv screen. Thought says mountains behind, hills in between and river up front, but the screen is flat. Seeing being a screen with various things coming and going within that screen, including bits of body. Where do you end and over there starts? Could you find that line?
No. It is just ...

Hiya Sarah

Lets have a little look at separation and sensory experience. We are going to start with seeing.

Gaze at an object. Turn up that inner magnifying glass to observe what's happening in direct experience. In seeing, what is being experienced? What is happening when "seeing" is happening ...

Hiya Sarah
But when completely caught up by thought, the greyness returns. But life only seems to be experienced in the Now. How could I have overlooked that?
Ok break this down. What is this statement made up of? Anything ,ore than story? Thought telling you it's all grey? Watch thought rise and ...

Hi Sarah

So another interesting development. I'm can see the Now. I can see that the future and past are these ghostly grey images, devoid of real life, conjured up characteristics drawn from memories. The purple caravan I imagined is not a real purple caravan that engages my sight, hearing, causes ...

Hi Sarah - early start (assuming you are in the UK)!

So first thing this morning, I went to make a cup of tea. Someone had not put the top on the milk carton. There was annoyance, but then very shortly after but very clearly separately came the voice "Why are you annoyed?". In that moment, there ...

Hi Sarah

It seems like a thought has the power to lead to or, even, cause action. There is not sufficient space to see the action arising independent of the preceding thought - even though the one appears after the other. That a thought is saying "this has caused that" it still not seen.
Have ...

Hi Sarah

The presence has no qualities other than just being there.
Can you rest there?
As soon as there is a seeking of this presence, it cannot be found. I am not always immediately aware that it is there. The "I" therefore must overlook it if the presence is real and doesn't just come and go ...

Hi Sarah

You: there is a very vague sense of the noticer - yes, it is still there
Me: I want you to keep looking for it. Keep checking in to see if its ever not there. Ever not accessible. Get curious about it!
Awareness of it is not always there. Though in hindsight it always was. Looks like I'm ...

Hi Sarah

Sorry for not getting back before, busy weekend ...

Things are just emerging. There is a noticer, but it isn't an "I" or "me". This all happens in or around this body-mind, but no ownership is involved. There is no "I" agent causing things to happen. The "I" agent comes to the fore more ...

Morning Sarah
Is it noticed or does it just happen?
That's what Im asking you! :) Is it one or the other or both?
You may need to help me out here. Not quite sure how to answer this. It is difficult to separate out the noticing
Don't need you to separate - just want you to look from the point ...