Hi Alex,

here I am after the break days spent into "looking".

The more I look at this "sense of existence" and the more I discover new things about it. It's like there's always something new and different, as in looking at the same object from different angles and perspectives. The "being" is a ...

Hi Alex,

just a quick note:

Yes, sure, there will be times, maybe even most of the time, when you are caught in thought-story and this realisation is not in the foreground - you have been functioning like that for decades so give it some time to change.

ok, so it will take time :-) whatever ...

Hi Alex,

The only way to honestly do this is to step out of the realm of belief and investigate from this neutral position. The only neutral position is direct experience - all other positions are thought based and thus biased and built on certain beliefs. So how does labelling happen... when you ...

Hi Alex,

No, thought is a part of direct experience. You experience thought, don't you?
yes, ok :-)

The specific issue with thought is that it seems to provide a meaning to the experience. No other "part" of experience does that - seeing doesn't provide any meaning or label or judgement about ...

Alex,

Now lets look at each single word of the sentence:

ok now I understand what you mean and how it has to be done. But I need more time for it, I'll write you back tomorrow.

Nino

Hi Alex,

I really wanted you to look at this sentence, at the words it contains. Which words in this sentence do you find in the direct experience itself?
Sit down a relax. Feel this sensation... Now inquire into the statement "I feel a tingling between my eyes". Look at this current experience ...

Hi Alex,

here I am back again.

There might be many more "Aha" moments to come - still don't stick to any. Let them happen and let them leave.
indeed there was another minor "aha", I was searching for the "I that controls" and got the answer "it's just ...
thoughts??? a bunch of thoughts!", but ...

Alex, as I went to write my reply the LU site was down/unreachable from here, so I'll write you tomorrow.

I will use this extra time to repeat the "exercise".

Nino

Hi Alex,

What made it not "satisfactory"?

in the sense that it was not resolutive, seeing it's an illusion once for all. I still expect there will be a threshold event, an "ah!" moment as some say. But ok, that was just an experience, I won't cling on it.

OK... great. Can you in any way ...

Hi Alex,

I'm back again, yesterday was a busy day and I had no chance of reading and integrating your message. Sadly, that day-off has been quite detrimental because I lost my pace and today I was unable to focus and look at the subtle things of the mind. I wonder, how one is supposed to look for ...

Alex, I wasnt able to read your message today, so I need one more day, will write tomorrow.

The only thing I want to mention is, this morning while shaving my skin suddenly I had an insight "who is doing it? just thoughts???" but alas it didnt last. More on that tomorrow.

Hi Alex,

thank you for the guidance you are giving me, I really appreciate it. You are giving me a chance.

What changed in this moment when it became "no longer you"?
Did thought give up pretending that this sensation belongs to someone?
Was there an insight like "Ah... its just a normal ...

Hi Alex,

what will have to happen so your belief will change? What proof is required?
eh! this is an interesting question, because at intellectual level, I almost have all the proofs. But still doesn't "feel" it, perhaps I have some expectations about a big "ah!" moment of understanding e.g. like ...

Hi Alex,

Lets again look at your number exercise. Close your eyes. Think of a number between 1 and 10. Lets say 3 shows up. You might have had a thought before "Ok... great... I now decide to think 3!"... next thought comes up "3!"... So, even the first thought seemed to come from nowhere and the ...

Hi Alex,

When you decide to move the focus to the wind outside, did "you" chose the wind over the TV or the car or the tree? Or did the idea "wind" just pop up... out of nowhere..? Try this again and move the focus "at will". Try to see where the decision is made that you focus on something - when ...