Hi Rafael,

When you say:
The only thing I can control is my reaction to my emotions.

I just would ask, if we already saw that there is no "I", what exactly is that which claims control over the emotions?


True. If there's no "I" then there's no "I" to control emotions. But then what's the ...

Hi Rafael,

Thank you for replying back. Okay, lets continue :-)


Please observe the thoughts that appear on mind and see if you can you choose the content of the next thought. Are you able to choose it? can you find the exact point where you willingly chose a thought?

Sometimes I do this thing ...

Hi,
So sorry about being M.I.A. I’m still alive lol So many things has happened since my last post. My life got really crazy. I had a very emotional few weeks: a short but intense romantic relationship, issues with anxiety and the death of the person that I cared about the most in world. I felt lost ...

Can you say with a big YES that the self is an ilussion?

Yes! The self is an illusion.

I'm ready for the final questions.

Hey Rafael!

Sorry for the late response. I was really busy and I wanted to take some time to observe nature and people and reflect on it.

f you have the chance, go outside into nature, maybe a park. Just sit down and watch all around, trees, animals, babies, other people. See how everything ...

So I guess, if I drop the thought that there is a “me” , my life wouldn’t be meaningless. It would actually be more meaningful. I would not feel shackled to anxiety, fear or continue to engage in self-destructive behaviors that have hurt my relationships and prevented me from doing things that I ...

I’m soooo sorry for not getting back right away. I wasn't home for few days and I didn’t have good access to the internet. I really really appreciate your concern. Thank you for caring ☺

I had a lot of time to think about what you wrote. So here we go:

Now tell me, does a story or a thought ...

What is exactly that "me" that needs to be protected?

I have this belief about myself that I am a victim of society, a fragile vessel, that the world is big bad scary place full of pain and suffering and forces in the universe are intentionally trying to hurt me. The “me” is the story in which I ...

I keep coming up with flowery analogies in my mind about fear...haha! I have one more: fear is like feral child that's trying to protect me from the bad things in the forest. He can't communicate the dangers so he burns down the whole forest so now we're trapped in a forest fire lol in my mind he ...

Fear is very painful for me and it is forever changing. Sometimes it starts out as pressure in my head but most of the times it starts off as pressure surrounding my heart. I have this feeling like my heart is sinking into itself and the sinking feeling is pulsing at beat of my increasing fast heart ...

I’m looking really hard inside my body and mind but I just keep running into thoughts, feelings and physical sensations. Where is this “I”? Where is “me”?

I don’t know. I have this belief of who I am. A woman of color in a society that has a lot of stereotypes and negativity against me because of ...

I also feel impatient

It's in my forehead. I feel tension in muscles in my forehead and around my eye brows. It's like a gray blob, shapeless form, moving and stretching from my forehead to the top of my head. There is pressure around my eye and on the top of my head and now I can feel it pulsing on the top of my head.

I don't see anything. All I see is darkness. All I have are my thoughts that randomly pop up and my feelings about doing this activity. But, I have the urge to control what I'm thinking, to stifle all the bad thoughts. If it's not the "I", then what is trying to control the thoughts?

I'm trying to control everything and failing miserable at it.