Hello, jumping in. Let's do this

I see lies everywhere man, I question everything, finally doing something on my own.

I can compare that to playing video games and suddenly you realizing its dark outside and you started playing 5 hours ago, and you never knew where did this time go, how fast it passed, is it the same?

Edit: Rikki, you can start reading it from 2nd paragraph, 1st one is useless, but you can read whole if you want.

Looking for evidence of what?
For evidence of "me" or "self" existing apart for this which is aware of searching for that evidence.
I stopped jumping from one idea about how should ...

Gazing into the void, looking for evidences!

When I observe this, there are like two voices arguing in my head: one is saying "You can't do that, stop it" or "this is it, continue". So something must be aware of this thought, who is this 1st voice talking to ? Looks like I'm talking with myself, lol. Like split personalities. But they're just ...

Failing immensely...

I believe I would need a gun pointing to my head and 1 minute given: to crack this or die. Still "looking" though.

I know all the theory, have joined ruthless truth early in September, just can't get this "cracked".

OK, let's do this. I'm ready.