The truth of life

[kyleleey]

Hi Stacy

Thank you that really helps. The instruction on reading is good rather than just reading it like a book.

I will work through the pointers you have given for me.I did the first one this morning All it is and will do it again later today and report back. Then move on to some of the others you suggested.

I do feel something is shifting since starting this process. Life seems lighter and I'm not getting caught up in things so much.

Love
Kyle

[Anastacia42]

Very good

[kyleleey]

Hi Stacy : )

I hope you are settling into your new home.

So I practiced All it is. I could feel there was the experience and an observer of experience The observer seemed spacious and vast (I had my eyes closed) and I have experienced this before many times when I dance or in altered states - with eye closed there is a vastness that is 'me' or in this case God.

Should I keep with this one or try the others. You said we are looking for a shift in perception. Can't say I have felt that but I like the intention of this meditation.

love and thanks
Kyle

[Anastacia42]

Hi Kyle I'm sorry I don't think I got notification of your last response. If you notice that happening write to me please..

Ilona is offering an 8 week class that I wanted to share with you.


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That vastness may be your shift in perception

You can move forward with other pointers on the recordings.

Loving

[kyleleey]

No worries Stacy. I thought you may have been on holidays over Easter.

I've been working through them. Did the 'Beginning thinking' which was hard but had a similar experience to the previous one.

Now jumped to 'Where is I' as it appealed to me. I felt drawn to this question in Ilona's pdf. Can I find the “me” as anything other than sensations, emotions, thoughts and stories about “me”?

Think I'll do them a few times and reflect back to you.

Love
Kyle

[Anastacia42]

Hi Kyle,

Yes, "I" is a lie feeling of contraction plus thought.

That feeling of expansion & peace when you find no "I " is the truth feeling. When that takes over, there's the shift in perception..

Keep posting how it's going.

Loving

[kyleleey]

Hi Stacy

I hope you are well. Hows the new location going?

So I've been practicing the 'Where is I' pointer.

The first time I did it when asking where is the location of the I thought, I felt it was there when a thought arose about something related to my life. It was more a sense of I that was there, but I couldn't find a location. I did it with my eyes closed and it felt like I went very deep somewhere as i was looking.

Second time again I couldn't find the I. It was like it's nowhere, and there was a feeling of nothing. When a sensation or sound around I felt I was around it, or it was in me.

Interesting also as I was meditating this morning, noticing thinking about me (the psychological me my yoga teacher calls it, rather than the functional me) I was curious to notice the quality of the thinking that this teacher talks about. I have noticed that there is a particular energy to it, contracted, which I only really notice when there is no thinking and the contrast of that energy not being there.

I'll do this one another time then move to the next?

Love and thanks : )
Kyle

[Anastacia42]

Hi

The site seems to have recovered for now.

particular energy to it, contracted

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Yes, "I" is a lie feeling of contraction plus a thought.

Yes, practice any of those recordings. We're looking for a shift in perception.

Loving,

[kyleleey]

Hi Stacy

I've signed up for Ilona's course which starts tomorrow.

I'll probably keep chatting here with you during it. See how it unfolds.

Love
Kyle

[Anastacia42]

Excellent! Yes, keep me posted

Loving,

[kyleleey]

Hi Stacy!!!

I hope you are well : )

I started the courses last week and thought I would share each weeks homework here as you may have some response. This is week one - Where are you now and where are you going?

Mind
What will life be like after awakening - expecations ( I hope and I want, I should and I shouldn't)

I hope that there will be more peace, and clarity about the reality of life and what's happening rather than my stories. I will be more content with life as it is, acceptance and trust, letting go of things held so tighly and a freedom in that. The release of seeking will bring relief.

Interesting in looking at another persons response in the chat where they mentioned love, I had a strong response to that in that it felt true is was a strong goal for me - to feel more love for myself and and my life and to be love in the world, to not be so hard on myself and to allow life to flow with love. And know that I am held in love.

Emotions
When you look at the list - what comes up and you don't have it. Sit and feel that

At the moment I feel a lot of confusion since starting into this area with Liberation Unleashed content and being guided. A conflict exists between what I know intellectually and how I respond and act in my life. It's frustrating. I can see the suffering it causes and I feel tired of it all really. There is a discontent with life and knowing there is peace behind it all makes me feel down that I am trapped in this mental system. I feel detached from life.

The love thing is interesting, because there is a deep longing to feel real love and experience that. This has been a very long road. I have spent long periods single in my life and yet although I have lots of wonderful relationships and love around me, there is something missing. That creates a sadness and depression sometimes.

Actions
How does this affect how you show up in the world.

I don't feel I'm stuck the seeker identity, but is my life goal in life to realise the truth.
I recognise that I don't have a lot of energy for other peoples challenges at the moment. I wish to spend time focusing on practices and doing things like this course. This was a hard one because I don't really feel my seeker identity is much in my outer life - just me being me.

Thank you for being here