There is neither separate self, nor me/I. There are different shapes,forms and ways of life, but nobody conducts life. Was there ever? I can’t say. There was a story. The only can be seen now and here - there isn’t any director.1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all,anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
The separate self is a concept, a story, a bunch of beliefs, rules, ideas, upbringing, family history, so many things that build the personality. So many concerns, doubts, fears, lack of freedom are experienced as you believe you are separated from life. I/me is looking for the meaning and purpose of life all the time and there is no rest…2) Share in your own words what the illusion of separate self is and how it shows up in experience. Also, through your inquiry, what is different now?
There is a different way of seeing and feeling now. There is more sensitivity as well as more tolerability. It seems the pace of living is not so fast – everyday efforts and struggling are part of life again but they aren’t so scareful. There is a feeling of peace, of no-self-significance. Your being is equal with this cat or that building over there.
Well there is a feeling of calmness and sometimes of kind of irresponsibility - this world doesn't hold on your shoulders. You have nothing to do with the things that happen to someone else. No one is to blame. A feeling of regret came for a while, that I hadn't seen this before, but here is another proof that there is no one to make things happen. They happen by themselves.3) How does it feel to see this?
What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
I can't remember exactly the last bit, but maybe it was an exercise my guide made me do. So while folding the laundry I saw that inside me there was an absolutely empty space, like a hollow. There wasn't anybody who created thoughts, intentions, who made my body move, sort, fold.4) What was the last bit that pushed you over; made you look?
Free will? Free from what? Control is an illusion, it is a part of I/me idea. Decisions are made, intentions come and go, things happen, but still I don't see anybody creating them. If this glass of water is thrown, it will fall because gravity acts and it will break because the glass is fragile. Physical laws apply here. Physical laws are also the way life goes. Life works and nothing works separately from it.5) a) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? Give examples from your own recent experiences to how things happen and how things work.
No one makes me abdicate the responsibilities I take on in society as a mother, a daughter, a friend. I have certain relationships with my loved ones and other people. I am not a hermit and I don't need to be to feel free. I just look at it differently.b) What are you responsible for? Give examples from your own recent experiences to how this works.
Excuse my English :) There are efforts not to use I/me form of expression, but sometimes the lack of self fails in speech. Ha-ha!6) Anything to add?
