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[MartinaDolce]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
What I understand is that the "self" I’ve taken myself to be - a separate, continuous, unchanging entity - does not actually exist in direct experience. This "self" is a mental construct made of thoughts, stories, and identifications, but it has no solid, inherent existence of its own.

What are you looking for at LU?
I'm looking for clarity beyond concepts. I’ve tasted moments of spaciousness where the “I” disappears - where everything just is - but the mind often comes back in and rebuilds the sense of self. What I seek here is not another teaching, but a direct, irreversible seeing: that this “self” I've been defending, improving, or doubting… was never real in the first place.

I’m not here for comfort or spiritual identity - I’m here to look with radical honesty. If the “I” is just a thought, I want to see that with full clarity. I want to strip away illusion, not to believe in something new, but to see what is - with no filters.

LU feels like a place where this looking is supported with precision, where nothing is added - only the false removed. That’s what I’m here for.

What do you expect from a guided conversation?
I don’t expect someone to give me answers or tell me what to believe. I expect a sharp, honest mirror - someone who can point me back to direct experience again and again, especially when the mind tries to escape into concepts or spiritual stories.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?
I’ve been on a deep inner journey for many years - not as a search for something external, but as a longing to remember what’s most real. I’ve had several profound experiences of awakening, where the sense of separate self dissolved completely - what remained was stillness, spaciousness, and undeniable clarity that this is always here.

Over the years, I practiced meditation, presence-based methods, somatic awareness, and different forms of self-inquiry. I’ve also explored teachings of nonduality, the Enneagram, Integral Theory, and shadow integration. These helped me grow in understanding, but I also see how easily seeking becomes just another identity - a refined version of the self trying to awaken.

Now, I feel ready to look very directly. To cut through what remains - especially the subtle identifications, the quiet resistance to full seeing. Not to collect more experiences, but to see clearly: was there ever a “me” here to begin with?

So I come not as a beginner, but as someone who's ready to drop the story of being “on the path” - and just look.

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self? 10

[graceabounds]

Hello,

Thank you for your patience in waiting for a guide. I resonated with what you wrote and would be happy to be with you in this inquiry.

Right now, without using memory, concepts, or analysis:
Can you find any entity that thinks thoughts?
Can you find any separate self behind the sensations, controlling or observing?

If not… where is the one who loses the insight?

Give me what you see. Not what you think.

-Becca