Seeking a guide

[VioletM]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this? I understand that there is no real self. I’ve experienced glimpses of this with psychedelics and during meditation. That the sense of the one watching is an illusion. A thought.

What are you looking for at LU? I’m currently stuck in the awakening process and am looking for a guide to help me overcome this last hurdle before first awakening. I have been doing self inquiry following the teaching of Angelo Dilullo and have felt the fear barrier but have not been able to let go into first awakening.

What do you expect from a guided conversation? I would like a direct transmission. Some guidance on what I’m doing and if I’m on the right track. It’s been a lonely journey doing this on my own and I’ve been getting frustrated doing self inquiry over and over again, feeling the fear sensation and then… nothing. I guess I’m looking for some hope that I’m not doing this for nothing.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry? I’ve been meditating, focusing on the “I am” sense. I’ve been watching Angelo Dilullo and a few other spiritual teachers.

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self? 11

[poppyseed]

Hi VioletM
(what do you want me to call you?)

Welcome to Liberation Unleashed :)! It’s great to see you here!
My name is Rali, and I’ll be glad to be your guide if you like.

Here at LU we assist in the exploration of the idea of the separate self. This is a guiding based on experience that brings a shift in perception and is not a debate. It directly points to what IS through the use of exercises, questions and dialogue. What is expected from you is to LOOK carefully to what is being pointed at. It is this simple LOOKING (not thinking) that brings a shift in perception.

Here, we are LOOKING directly into the experience of the senses, which is actually here and now, with the thinking stripped away. It is also known as Direct Experience (DE) or Actual Experience (AE). In this way, we are aiming to discover what is truly happening without the story we tell ourselves. For this process to work you have to answer with 100% honesty, and not relying on thought, imagination or memory - just reporting your direct experience. That would also mean leaving spiritual teachings, philosophies and science away during the inquiry. If you have a meditation practice, please feel free to continue with it as usual – it might come helpful.

Please read through “Liberation Unleashed is not …” in the FAQ’s of LU. Please confirm that you have read them
http://liberationunleashed.com/about/faq/#faq-1041

When replying to a question, please use the quote function to highlight the question being answered. Throughout this inquiry, please answer questions individually, not in a bundle. Please watch the below video to learn how to use the Quote function. This will assist us in having a clear dialogue around the questions and answers.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fAToDNh9hQ

It is advisable that you copy and paste questions asked into Word, answer them there and then copy and paste them to your thread. It will save you time in the long run, if a glitch in the system wipes out your answer.

For the sake of the intensity of the inquiry let’s try to stick to a daily conversation. Of course, life happens, so if you need more time, please let me know. I will do as well.

What time zone are you in?
Love
Rali