Here's now it went:
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Ilona:
Ok, we cam do it here. Fine.
Shoot. Convince me that you seen through illusion of separate self.
CFR:
(Unrelated; we were discussing what culminates in this:
http://liberationunleashed.com/nation/v ... p?f=3&t=46)
Ilona:
(Unrelated) What is I/ me/ self?
CFR:
(Unrelated) The ego and the self? It's only a lie. An illusion. A virus in the mind. A dream.
Ilona:
(Unrelated) Before I can invite you to our groups where we are working on spreading the message, I need you to be confirmed. Not just by me but also by other 3 people.
So let's see if you are really through or just think you are. Cool?
How and when did seeing happen for you?
CFR:
(Unrelated) But anyways, it happened with me in April, 2011. It happened like I had terrible pains in my head and woosh! It disappeared! Forever.
Ilona:
Wow. So what exactly happened? Or did you just woke up one morning and it wad gone?
CFR:
I didn't remember if it was a morning or an afternoon... Heck, after it it took me like two weeks to realize what happened... Then I went for a confirmation for you (if you remember) and also Steven Norquist (with whom I exchanged mails at the time)
What exactly happened? I had big head pains, like for example when watching AhabCapt's Jed McKenna videos on YouTube... but this pain disappeared forever!
Ilona:
So how did you notice that self was gone?
CFR:
Pain disappeared... I suddenly understood smart Steven Norquist... and how life goes on... It's not that I became a special snowflake or something... But it was a revelation for sure. Things just clicked.
I mean not all pain disappeared forever... but this very big pain.
Ilona:
Amazing. I read only a bit of Steven and looked that he got it.
So what's then? How did it feel, did your view change immediately or gradually? Carry on with the story please.
CFR:
I didn't read Steven's book either.
Yeah, of course it unfolded gradually! I mean it took two weeks from the pains to disappear to see what's happened... and go for the confirmation to you & to Steven.
To carry on with the story: it wasn't a big change for me as I've always been an outsider. Being interested in neuroscience now.
Ilona:
Ok, so can you answer me some basic questions:
Is there a you in any shape or form in reality? What is real?
CFR:
The I: as it is a virus... it might be real... if it's imagined, then it's not real. But who am I to know all this?
Consciousness is real which just flows through everything and every body (two words) as life.
Ps. which phone do U use so that you can type so well on it?
Ilona:
(Phone)
Look at the thought I, what does it refer to?
CFR:
It's just a thought, not mine, not personal. just a thought which comes and goes.
Ilona:
cool.
so do you exist?
CFR:
Me not. Just truth and reality.
And never existed.
Ilona:
so how does life work, can you describe the best you can?
CFR:
Yeah! It's just a big play. The universe entertains itself. If you know what I mean...
Intelligent consciousness flows through everything... but there is no separation. All is one.
Ilona:
You sound clear to me... i'll get ti checked witht the guys. please be patient..
CFR:
Yep.
Ilona:
Can i ask you, What is truth?
CFR:
That there is no you or I. That's the only truth we need to know at this point.
CFR:
It was actually so easy.
CFR:
Welcome! And thanks!
Ilona:
cool.