Guidance please.....
Posted: Tue Jan 21, 2014 2:16 pm
Here is where I stand:
What are you looking for?
To see through, what you call and I seemingly have a sniff of, the illusion of the 'I'.
To resolve the contradiction in the following:
the heart beats without any control from Me, as do the senses sense. Also, I do not seem to have any control over my thoughts as well. They come out of nowhere and go into nowhere. I notice their rise and fall, out of nowhere and into nowhere. Then, how do I seemingly have control over how I react to these thoughts? This reaction must also be a bunch of thoughts over which I must have no control. So am I reacting without any control and then somehow thinking that I could have thought this way or that. This seeming reaction: is it also non voluntary, creating the illusion of control?
What do you think should be different than what it is now?
If there is no I in control, nothing should be different. If the I is in control, then understand how it can be in control and still not have any control over the thought process.
What do you expect to change?
Nothing except the resolution of the above question. If I am not in control, really nothing should change, other that Me thinking that I voluntarily chose to react a certain way to events, situations, in life.
What do you want to change and what you dont want?
I realise that what I want to change are the things that do not suit Me and not change are the ones that do suit Me.
So then the question then becomes who is this Me? I cannot be the body(aggregate of My senses), since they do not produce thought. Me seems to be in my mind (and what is this mind really?).
Where are these thoughts?
Not in my body as defined above, since these thoughts are not part of the aggregate of the senses. But without this body, can there be a thought? If there is no thought without this body, thought has to be part of this body. Contradiction again!
I would appreciate any help from anyone.
Thanks,
Mumukshu
What are you looking for?
To see through, what you call and I seemingly have a sniff of, the illusion of the 'I'.
To resolve the contradiction in the following:
the heart beats without any control from Me, as do the senses sense. Also, I do not seem to have any control over my thoughts as well. They come out of nowhere and go into nowhere. I notice their rise and fall, out of nowhere and into nowhere. Then, how do I seemingly have control over how I react to these thoughts? This reaction must also be a bunch of thoughts over which I must have no control. So am I reacting without any control and then somehow thinking that I could have thought this way or that. This seeming reaction: is it also non voluntary, creating the illusion of control?
What do you think should be different than what it is now?
If there is no I in control, nothing should be different. If the I is in control, then understand how it can be in control and still not have any control over the thought process.
What do you expect to change?
Nothing except the resolution of the above question. If I am not in control, really nothing should change, other that Me thinking that I voluntarily chose to react a certain way to events, situations, in life.
What do you want to change and what you dont want?
I realise that what I want to change are the things that do not suit Me and not change are the ones that do suit Me.
So then the question then becomes who is this Me? I cannot be the body(aggregate of My senses), since they do not produce thought. Me seems to be in my mind (and what is this mind really?).
Where are these thoughts?
Not in my body as defined above, since these thoughts are not part of the aggregate of the senses. But without this body, can there be a thought? If there is no thought without this body, thought has to be part of this body. Contradiction again!
I would appreciate any help from anyone.
Thanks,
Mumukshu