The Gate

Hi Im Stephen,
Vivien was guiding me back in 2021, but i had an emotional crisis come up due to a death & it caused me great anxiety. Since then I have succesfully put the anxiety to bed. I am returning to proceed with the guiding process, my guide doesnt seem to be available so I am looking for another guide to take me the rest of the way. Where am I ? im not sure but there is a sense of calmness in the days for the most part.

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
That the guides job is to provide pointers based on the experiences I have that will prove there is no real separate entity "called me."

What are you looking for at LU?
validation of what I truly am, if im not a me then what am I exactly.

What do you expect from a guided conversation?
I expect to see stark difference between this so called "me" and what is truly happening.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?
too many years of it to put all down on paper here, you name it ive probably tried it. it reminds me of a dog chasing its tail, its a never ending search while the self buiilds its case that its real, it can take over your life all because you believe in it.

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self?
11

I was finally able to contact my past guide and she is no longer guiding here, so I do need another guide, so please as soon as one is available I would like to continue, THANK YOU!

I am wondering since ive already had a guide if I will be avoided, I really want to continue on in this process. This instructions were quite clear not to create another account if ive had a guide in the past, and I will not unless instructed to do so. I would just like to know if im being considered. Thx if I am.

Everyone gets a guide. We just don't have many. Please be patient. Read & watch things on this site.

Hi, thank you for your remarks...
Im reading the Gateless Gatecrashers . . .
The garbage can is not as full as it used to be..
Stephen

Hi Stephen,

We try to take the ones that have been waiting the longest. Right now, that's about a month. There are 14 hopefuls ahead of you, but in some ways you've been waiting for years. Also, I have things I can share about both death & anxiety.

So, let's begin.

I guide differently than most. Mostly pointers with little need for conversation.

I also offer these pointers from my DropBox. One is about death. Listen to the introduction first. Let me know how they go.

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/ksba3zhi9uuz ... hsk1a?dl=0

Please tell me where you left off with Vivien and what got you through whatever challenges you had. Briefly, please.

Much love,

Hi Anastacia,
first thing I would like to say is thank you for taking the time with me.
This is the last writing from viven to me >> Now, I would like you to go back to the beginning of our thread, and read the whole thing from the beginning. But only read my posts, and ignore yours. And not just read them, but work with every single pointer for the beginning.

This will take a while, so just take your time. Don’t rush, but be thorough. When you finished please write me what you’ve discovered.

Vivien

I started to do that and then I realized there were other issues i felt at the time that needed to be resolved. What got me through the challenges in these past years was just noticing what is here now, what is here now had none of those issues, was just life happening one second at a time.

I listened to the 1. introduction to IAM - COMPLETE-CD.MP3 January 19th behind the link you sent me, right away the alarms went off that this is another teaching, I only listened, I didnt go any further.

You're welcome.

No, there's no teaching there at all, just some help with the exercises that follow. Please continue.

I want you to be able to practice the Zooming in on Death pointer.

Loving,

Are you giving up?

Hi

No Not at all!! Ive been going through 1 each night and looking during the day, Im on # 5 tonight.

Stephen

Hi Stephen,

That's great. Please write here after each one.

Loving,

Hi Stacy,

Ive been practicing the zooming in on death ever since I first listened, and right away a letting go was seen when approaching death the first night. I also noticed in death a coming back into life into a body but its not seperate. There was a kind of knowing in this not from any book or head knowledge that death is actually life and not what I was groomed to believe in as some complete extinction event belief. theres much peace in seeing that thoughts and beliefs, concepts taken on over all these years are not what I truly am. When I was experiencing the horrible bouts of anxiety back in 2021, i decided to try and understand the mechanisms in the body, what their functions are and at that time it helped me, but i was still missing the mark, in those quiet moments the stillness that has always been in my life was the way home it apparently.

Good. Yes, it's a body know8ng.

Speaking of bodies, try this:

Introductory Body Exercise

Sit with eyes closed for about 15 minutes. Paying attention only to the pure sensations, without relying on thoughts or mental images:

Can it be known how tall the body is? Does the body have a weight or volume? In the actual experience does the body have a shape or a form?

Is there a boundary between the body and the clothing? Is there a boundary between the body and the chair?

Is there an inside or an outside? If there is an inside - the inside of what exactly? If there is an outside - the outside of what exactly?

What does the word/label ‘body’ ACTUALLY refer to? What is the ACTUAL experience of the body?

Look very carefully, especially with the last question. Take your time, don’t rush. You can look several times during the day while doing other things (like washing hands, showering, having a short break from work, walking, etc) before replying.

Loving,

Hi ,
These questions are not found in focusing on sensations or the ideas of them. This exercise after the 15 minutes took me back to a time in this life where there was only the experience of sensations, there was no me or "I" running a story over the top of all the raw sensations. I can remember quite clearly I was sitting in a high chair in the kitchen at my grandmothers house, my mother would put me there to keep an eye on me. She came into the kitchen looked at me and called me stephen, and for some reason I realized she was talking to me, before that there was just raw sensations, no me recognizing a name. Curious why there was a shift to a storyline? I can tell you I was not happy growing up in a storyline, I had always felt like an alien on a foreign planet.

Curious why there was a shift to a storyline? I

No idea. Anything I answer is just a thought story.

Please answer the questions, quoting each one individually & answering underneath.

Loving