From hunch to knowledge

[Liberella0]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this? I understand and have experienced that the separate self is a construct, a chimera, an identity based on the thought of I, Me. I experienced this through a realisation that I had clung to and fed an identity entirely built around grief. Once this became clear to me, I could allow myself to see what is here really and start to see what's beyond self

What are you looking for at LU? To have a guide to POINT to what I don't see (clearly) yet, to gain consistency in seeing, to experience liberation from the mirage that there is a separate self, to allow life in and through me, to explore if what I am experiencing is 'real' or something the mind serves up to justify itself. I don't have the exact words to express what has changed for me recently but I know I am far less attached to thoughts and therefore suffering. I am looking for a guide to help me look and see in everyday life. I am not trying to escape any unpleasant emotions... I have trained to be a psychotherapist and have dived into the 'heal it to feel it' mantra. I have suffered from depression but since realising this suffering stems from a created identity, I am much less prone to get hooked. I am really looking to understand and find THIS. That THIS is it.

What do you expect from a guided conversation? to be able to relay my "experience", to scrutinise it, to receive guidance in finding my way through confusion, to be held accountable with regards to tasks and questions. I would expect to be pointed to experiences in the moment as well as in every day life, to discuss me, self, the body, time... to be able to come with my questions as they have arisen in between discussions. I would hope for examples of direct inquiry.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry? I have been a seeker all my life, whether that was through connection with animals, horses in particular, energy work and healing (shiatsu, again, for horses), practicing Nitchiren Buddhism for several years, plant medicine, studying psychotherapy and recently getting engaged with direct enquiry and listening to Kat v Oudeheusden, reading Sal Poe and C Niebauer. I am working with an AI tool that works with the universal templates and really allows to let me SEE how the identity fights for its survival, convoluting itself into loops and thus creating and perpetuating suffering.

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self?

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