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[Quincy]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
I am not who or what I take myself to be. This is what I think I understand about this.

What are you looking for at LU?
I want to see unfiltered reality, living truth. I feel that life seems "off." There is something real that I am not experiencing. I have felt this for most of my life. Even though the surface aspect of my life would be considered a good life, there is still something that feels off. I feel very separate and I have a deep feeling that there is a definite possibility to experience life more fully.

What do you expect from a guided conversation?
I hope to be guided very directly to find that the self who I think I am is really not there. That before name, form, memories, imaginings of the future there is something very real that never leaves. This is what I hope to uncover.

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?
I have been interested in Buddhism since I was 17. I am now 63 years old. I have read many books and recently became aware of awakening as a real possibility in this lifetime from Angelo Dilullo. I started doing self inquiry and longer periods of meditation, but still no shift. I feel like I need someone to pull the rug out from under me, so to speak, or light a fire under my butt! I am very earnest about wanting to wake up from the dream of separation.

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self? 10