The Gate

I like this

at this point the best way to put my confusion into "words" is:

?!

Like it's saying: "But what of it?"
hm. Clearly, the not-knowing-part is a bit of a surprise.

asking, "but what expectation was there (for me to be irritated with this)?" yields strong body reaction.
Well, it might be just the body being felt very,... raw-ly.


whew. a lot is clear from here.

story comes: "But what of it?"

Genuine irritation/wondering about that part

Something I just noticed is the pattern of
Looking
Seeing
"Liking the result"
And then being hesitant to look again because "upon closer inspection it might be all wrong"

who asks ‘but what of it?’

does the skeptic exist?

does the skeptic exist?

not really.


Thought: How can I answer so quickly?
Thought: Have I checked this enough?
Thought: How can I be sure?


Feeling the skepticism in the left brow. Left hand. Anger comes up. Sensation in upper legs now.

does the skeptic exist?

there's a movement of "imagining him".

...

i think underlying that might be fear.
there was a little contact with it

Can you feel the sensations under fear and anger and shine some light on them?

Emotion = sensation + thought

We know what the thoughts are. Are they actually connected to the sensations? Which comes first?