The Gate

After the intilial "Click" awakening is happening slowly.

Theres no i but identification with toughts yet and everything seems to be as always.

But theres no me.

Yesterday inquiring had a beutiful glipse if the truth. I was awakening in to reality. The feeling was like a tree growing and blossoming, life showing all its beauty.It is beautiful.

When i inquire this glimpses happen more and more often.

This last night i saw for the first time really clear that there is nobody inthere. Really clear. It was kind of a frightening "experience". NOBODY in there. "I" was like a clock working by itself. All my being was a clock working alone, without a doer.Only happening. It was amazin to see it directly.

This morning stated some inquiry and again, the direct experience of life blossoming by it self.I was part of the game of life.I was one with life. This realitazion is really powerful and when u see it all desires stop coz all is here and theres nothing to get. Here is the best of all the spiritual experiences possibles, the best orgasm, the best of all your desires acomplished, the best of all the gifts...

Its very beutiful and tears tends to appear cz the search stops.

Toughts continue appearing with the action. And theres still identification. I still believe that this toughts are doing anything.

But one thing has dissapeared today. The fear of loosing it and the insecurity of losing my awakening. Now i feel more secure about this,more stablished in it.

We've been talking a bit offline, and you've been talking to others, and it's all coming clear day by day. Layers and layers of belief come up, are questioned, sometimes come back. We are not in a hurry, as the journey is, as you say, amazing.
This is the process. I've heard it referred to as the natural state, as we relax into what we really are.
Please post here as you like, it helps others, we've heard that so often.
Love.

Yeah, its getting stablished slowly day by day.
Yesterday was a very intense day with lot of movement. The silence, the presence o truth is really overwlemning sometimes and some layers of fear appeared. Theres a feeling of loosing control or driving me crazy sometimes cz i know all is slowly falling down.Thats the feeling and it brings fear here.

Today im feeling more balanced and really tired cz of yesterdays movement.
The most beutiful feeling was the feeling of my aura,my etheric body getting really light and the feeling of space full of lightness inside the body. Like if all the solid toughts and emotions are getting lighter.It feels so good.

But experiences comes and goes. All we know that and they are not the objetive.Better not to get attached to this kind of stuff althougt is good to enjoy it the time it is there and maybe inquire a bit about whos enjoying this experiences.

Today i feel more grounded but tired. Feels like today im resting from yesterday whole being "trip".

It feels like i see more clear that theres no Santa. It feels like santa is being atachment dissolved and getting smaller and smaller. Theres no fear about loosing it now and see with more clarity.

whole being purification was relly powerful yesterday and theres no doubt here about whats happening here and that this is real and its really happening (mind didnt want to belive 2 days ago).

whole being purification was relly powerful yesterday and theres no doubt here about whats happening here and that this is real and its really happening (mind didnt want to belive 2 days ago).

Well, it's not a matter of belief. If I tell you Batman is in the corner, you laugh and don't look. Batman exists in thoughts only, a story.
That is like looking for self, nothing there when I look but a thought. Fiction. The sense of a self is there, very useful, but the belief in a self-story can't be total after seeing through the illusion.
Thought, and thoughts about thoughts.
Keep looking at that, can thoughts put together a story that is real? Can we imagine Batman to actual life?
Energetic experiences come and go, as you say. The usual advice with the energy, is to allow, and be careful to watch the thoughts about them. They would like to make these experiences part of a new, spiritual identity.
Many get caught in this place, exactly. Lots of interesting things to believe and attach to a very special, enlightened self.
Sad to say :-) this is a process where you lose that belief that thoughts are really making up a self. Belief that glues thoughts onto a self. You come to KNOW, by looking directly at how life works, that the thoughts are thoughts, not reality. So simple. No belief required.
Only you can do this work, for you.
I appreciate your honest reporting. Keep watching for the way you want to make things different from the way they are. That is the self trying to create the world again. Look at those thoughts.
Love, E.