The Gate

Hello Doug,

Still entertaining thoughts of doubt: but noticing as thinking that floats in and out.

Good

Similarly, thought "am I really experiencing" the no separate self now? Given, noticing not much difference ( expected more if a loss and impact) to pre beliefs about me and my story illusion!

Yes, and isn't it crazy how that can happen, thoughts about "I" thinking looking for the "I's" demise, and none of it belonging to anyone, just thoughts appearing. Even expectation is just a thought belonging to no one.

Asking " is that it?".

Great, and what do you get as a response, without any thinking sneaking in?

Also asking/future thinking syndrome "when does the fear and wall hit my experiences "?

I am not sure what you mean by this, but is it anything more than than more thought content passing through?

Some "feeling of will power" required to push away this thinking.

Is a feeling ever more than a felt sensation in the body? Does a feeling ever name itself as some quality?
What is the "feeling of the feeling of will power"? Be forever curious of the felt sense, look at other feelings that arise, like a feeling of control, a feeling of helplessness. See the story that can be woven from a simple movement of sensation in the body.

Still, no self here.

:)

I will send the questions on the next post.

Hello Doug,

Here are the questions I mentioned. Your answers will be shared with other guides who may have their own questions. Please relate your answers to your direct experience and not from a conceptual understanding.


1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?


2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.


3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.


4) What was the last bit that pushed you over; made you look?


5) Describe decision and give an example from experience.

Describe intention and give an example from experience.

Describe free will and give an example from experience.

Describe choice and give an example from experience.

Describe control and give an example from experience.


6) What are you responsible for? Give an example from your experience.

7) What makes things happen? How does it all work?

8) Anything to add?

Warm regards,
Rowena

Good morning Rowena,

May be some delay in finishing responses to these questions.
Noticed, you have consistently encouraged "to stay within DE". Thankyou, that is the guiding light.

Warm regards
Doug

Good morning Doug,

Please take your time with the questions and yes, I cant stress it enough to return to DE to stop mid-thought and ask "What's here NOW" and see the stories being woven by thought. Questions can be mis-leading and so easy to get back on the conceptual bandwagon of interpreting, explaining, theorizing etc.

Have a lovely day,

Warm regards,
Rowena