Let's go!

[warissem]

Good morning

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

I have to say I am still not entirely sure I have gone over. There is a resistance. The self is turning the seeing that the self is an illusion into its own story again. Like, I am not the I, but there is still an I that is not the I. I don't know if that will make sense?

Nothing needs to be fixed or figured out now. The answers to all the questions are showing that This is it.
There’s no gate left to walk through.
Only the story of a gate.

You already see that there is no separate self in any shape or form.
You already see that decisions, choices, intentions, responsibility—they're like waves on the ocean. They happen. But they don’t need a captain. No one is steering this.

See that you are aware of the thought “I’m not sure I’ve gone over”, let it come and go. Let it live and die like everything else. You don’t need it to vanish. You only need to stop believing it belongs to someone which does not exist at the first place.
Just relax and be knowingly aware of the thoughts like : " There is a resistance. The self is turning the seeing that the self is an illusion into its own story again." and "Like, I am not the I, but there is still an I that is not the I."
Just see that there is no intelligence, no entity behind the word "I".
There is awareness of all this ridiculous dance of thoughts.

Let me know about what is going on.

Best for you

[Ceylan]

Hey Nour

Thank you for this.

There’s no gate left to walk through.
Only the story of a gate.

Haha I can actually see this.

Let it live and die like everything else. You don’t need it to vanish. You only need to stop believing it belongs to someone which does not exist at the first place.

Mmm yes I think this is it, I have been waiting for it to vanish.

What is going on is, I feel the same, there were no big aha moments or profound experiences. There is a clinging to something, I can still feel it because I can see all of this, but still there is a tie to it. I can feel it loosening and the old identifications wearing out. There is still a restlessness I thought would pass, the need to still figure it out, watching non duality videos etc things like that, wanting something to push me over. Blow my mind ha. But I see that it is my trying to figure this out creating the illusory thing I need to figure out. In other words if I stop trying to figure it out, I see there is nothing to figure lol there is just this. I'm seeing clearly how the mind creates layers and loops to keep us searching. But this is it.

My mind is a slippery one lol

Thank you
Ceylan

[warissem]

Good morning

Thanks for the answers. I invite other guides to look at your thread, there maybe questions from them.

Best wishes

[Ceylan]

Thank you for everything Nour

Appreciate you

[warissem]

Good morning Ceylan

Here is a question from a guide :

“There is a clinging to something, I can still feel it because I can see all of this, but still there is a tie to it. I can feel it loosening and the old identifications wearing out. There is still a restlessness I thought would pass,”

Is this clinging, the restlessness directly experienced somewhere in the body? Or only in thought?

waiting for your insights

[Ceylan]

Hey,

So the restlessness is definitely in the mind, still searching for answers. Alot of doubt, I know the self is not real. Conceptually but it feels like it hasn't clicked in.

On a physical level there is a restlessness too but it is hard to pinpoint where exactly or what the exact sensation is.

Ceylan

[warissem]

Good evening

So the restlessness is definitely in the mind, still searching for answers. Alot of doubt

,
Yes, you are aware of the restlessness and the doubts. They are here like clouds in the sky. It is normal because the old framework is collapsing and the new perspective has not stabilized yet. Instead of leaning on thoughts, just be knowingly aware.

I know the self is not real. Conceptually but it feels like it hasn't clicked in.

This sentence is all what a machine producing thoughts can say. Thoughts cannot grasp awareness. The best answer is silence, no effort to understand, no pull to know. Colors, shapes, sounds, sensations, etc ... and thoughts about everything, memories, expectations, ... Just let it be, let it come and go. Awareness is the ground, shining on whatever thought or appearance. Does this shining disappear when the mind is restlessness? Does awareness disappear when there is doubt?

On a physical level there is a restlessness too but it is hard to pinpoint where exactly or what the exact sensation is.

You don't have to fix this restlessness or get rid of it. Instead, see if you can become deeply curious about it without needing it to change. Where exactly is the restlessness? Who is it happening to? What if it's not a problem?

Stay with that inquiry, not to get rid of the feeling, but to see through the ‘one’ who claims it. Be aware knowingly and have faith on the process.

Nour