Well, I do fear suffering and being helpless in the suffering. I think this may be the entry point.
Keep in mind that the problem (suffering) is the solution. (for the un-awakened parts of you)
So, is suffering is the solution to the fear? is it 'beneath' the fear being the solution to suffering? (I know that this might sound a little whacky, but contemplate it.
I feel as if the fear was rather a pointer to where a stone has to be turned. But I will think about what you wrote.
The mental activity (the discontent) persists because you believe the stories attached to it.
Now, we can't control what we believe, but we can examine it. Examination usually invites change..
Yes, I can see that.
Write a short story about not being content.
You mean, literally? I haven't written any fiction since high school XD
On a side note...
I just listened to Enlightening Quotes and I had a little revelation as to why I have problems with understanding what's being said here. For some reason I am looking for mutual understanding but it seems that it is not possible. Here are some quotes from EQ and my reactions to them...
"Reality is non conceptual, it just is. You need to see this (that "I" does not exist) clearly and directly for yourself. Just like you see that there is no Batman in this room right now." "I is a thought concept therefore it is not real". Well, define reality and real! What you directly experience equals (roughly) perceptions. Perceptions and experiences are within a framework of a system. If you assume that what you experience or perceive or feel is real - than this is your definition of reality, you just CREATED a system, a point of reference. And you started building on it. But in my understanding Batman is real. He is not assembled with energy vibrations/atoms into the shape of a body, but he is still real, alive and kicking as a concept. In some sense he is more real than anyone here, more people know him, he has been around for longer than most of us and will outlive every single one of us. On the other hand - you (LU) say the chair, or a sound, or any other sensation is real (as in direct experience). So you assume that if you can see something and touch it, or feel it, it is real. Of course it is not. When you immerse yourself in a video game it becomes real. The chair is just certain assembly of energy knots known as subatomic particles that, by super complicated processes are represented in the mind as sensation of touch or a color, or a shape, or smell. Chair, Tony Blair, Fata Morgana, guilt, love, Batman, "I" exist and do not exist at the same time, depending on assumed framework. Neither of above are decision makers, controllers or experiences, whatever the definition of reality we choose. I think that I assume different framework than yours (LU's). I have nothing solid, every experience is just an interpretation of a nervous system building up to a mind that thoughts and feelings appear in. There is no way to define real, everything can be deconstructed because everything had been constructed prior! "Now you have something solid to compare the fog to" - oh, no I don't.
