Seeking, constantly seeking

[Anastacia42]

Good morning, Kara,

I am faced with the question now- if I have no control and I don’t decide anything why does it feel like this decision I have to make is very significant and could end up causing pain or upset to a lot of people?

Yes, in relative reality that's what's happening.

In absolute reality, nothing at all is decided or chosen and there's not anyone there to be hurt.

Or, as I believe Shunryu said, something about there's no "you," who can die but if you step in front of a bus, you'll die. We learn to live with paradoxes like this.

I believe they covered this some in "The Matrix."

Still, the more you let go & allow, the easier this kind of thing will be. You can relax & know that ultimately everything & everyone are okay, even when they *think* they are not. This applies to everyone & everything: war, poverty, COVID, abuse, etc.

This does not mean that we stop working to change these things at the relative level. We just recognize that ultimately everything is OK. It gives us a place of peace to work from.

I'll send the link to my Drop Box.

Much love,

Stacy

[KB1]

Hi Stacy

This is super helpful, thank you! I will let you know when I’ve received the Dropbox link.

Thank you

Kara

[Anastacia42]

Hi Kara, You should already have that link. Check your spam? Let me know if you don't find it.

Glad this was helpful!

I'm in an online class at the moment, so this is short.

Loving,
Stacy

[Anastacia42]

Hi Kara,

I haven't heard from you all week.

How's it going? Did you find the DtopBox link I sent a week ago?

ButtChair - have you been able to notice that butt & chair are one Sensation, yet? That any sort of story to the contrary is nothing but thoughts arising & telling a false story of two?

Loving
Stacy

[KB1]

Hi Stacy

I didn’t receive the Dropbox link/email. I’ve checked my spam. Please would you resend?

ButtChair - have you been able to notice that butt & chair are one Sensation, yet? That any sort of story to the contrary is nothing but thoughts arising & telling a false story of two?

I am still doing the butt chair exercise and still believing that I can feel both my butt and the chair. I will keep going with it.

Thank you

Kara

[KB1]

Hi Stacy

I’ve received the link to the Dropbox in my PMs. Thank you for sending. I’ll have a look over. Do I just start at the beginning?

Thank you

Kara

[Anastacia42]

Yes. Start with the Introduction.

Post after each one to say how it went, please.

Also, try this. It's similar to ButtChair, but different.


Hand on Desk

Please close your eyes for this exercise, just notice any ‘mental’ images or thoughts that appear and put them aside.

Place a hand on a desk or table (flat surface) - Close your eyes.

Now 'go to' the Sensation which we would normally refer to as 'hand on desk' and answer from what you can FIND.

1) How many things do you find? Are there two things (hand and desk) or is there one thing – AE of sensation.

2) Do you notice 'one thing feeling another thing'? Or is there just 'a sensation'?

3) Do you find an 'I', a body, a hand 'feeling' . . . or is there just 'a sensation'?

Look very carefully. Where does ‘feeling’ end and Sensation begin? Can a dividing line between ‘feeling’ and sensation be found? Or is there just sensation?

Can a ‘feeler’ ever be found in 'what is being felt' – AE sensation?

If that is all, and no INHERENT FEELER is found . . . would anything that is suggested as the feeler be other than a concept/idea/thought?


You can try this with your eyes open. If you can let go of the "separate hand" story, it can be very interesting.

Loving,

~ Stacy

[Anastacia42]

Hi Kara,

This video came up today & might help.

https://youtu.be/hkz904NJFU4

I know this is a lot: ButtChair, Hand on Desk,
12 DropBox recordings & a video. Take your time.

You're LOOKING, not thinking, for all of them. Words will arise. Ignore then. They lie.

Focus only on Actual Direct Experience:

Seeing
Hearing
Sensing (with touch)
Tasting
Smelling
Thoughts Arising (BUT NOT the story they tell)


Keep posting daily what you experience

Relax, kind of sink in & back. What you're LOOKING for is already here. You're learning to ignore a learned overlay that isn't absolutely true.

Loving,

Stacy

[KB1]

Hi Stacy

Thank you very much.

I’ll work my way through it all and come back to you

Thank you

Kara

[Anastacia42]

Hi Kara,

No, don't do it "all" and come back. Remember the requirement is to post daily.

Can you still do that?

Thanks,
Stacy

[KB1]

Hi Stacy

I was coming online today to message you to say, I don’t think I can continue to post daily and do the exercises. I believe I will have more time at the beginning of September to commit fully.

I don’t know what happens from here. Does this thread end and then I reapply once I am in a position to fully commit?

Thank you

Kara

[Anastacia42]

Thank you for letting me know. We just pick up again here when you're ready. Much love, Stacy

[KB1]

Hi Stacy

I am sorry it has taken me a long time to make my way back here. Are you still available to guide me please?

Thank you

Kara

[Anastacia42]

Hi Kara,

Yes, I'm here. Please just read the introduction post and answer the questions in blue.

Much love,

[Anastacia42]

Hi,

I just answered from my phone a minute ago. I did not realize how far we had gotten.

Will you please re-read your entire thread? Then pick one of the pointers or ButtChair to practice and report on.

Much love,