Hi yes I had an amazing time and great weather! thank you.
but yes that sound great to me.
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
No there is/was never a separate any of those.
2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
Its basically everything that is not happening now. And even when "I" try to label/describe what is happening now, then that starts the "separation" or thoughts about something thats not happening. So another way to put it is thoughts pop into ones head, and we claim them as being my thoughts, originating out of self or from me. "I thought that" or "I am having that thought", then it goes one step further and the thoughts/ideas/and beliefs about ourselves and the world around us become "my" reality, they become us. And there are so many more examples and manifestations of the imaginary separate self. I could go on and on. what I described earlier is a way this cycle so to speak can start. But as far as when that cycle started was when we were very young. So how I see it now is I cannot find this Birddog? anywhere in experience. He only shows up in Ideas.
3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue?
Please report from the past few days.
It feels good to see this. There are times when the vail drops and there is just experience. And that is amazing. Then other times life is just going on and happening. I do and do not see a difference at the same time. Life is happening Just as it always has. Life is happening, just perception has changed. The relationship life/reality/ect. has with itself has changed. That was my experience over the last few days as well. There was one night in particular where I was sitting by the lake on a dock and meditating and there everything was . Just experience. And I sat there in complete awe. Then other times things were more leveled out so to speak.
4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
It just showed up
A)Decisions- well "I" can have thoughts about them, weigh the options, think a whole lot about a so called decision but really in a split second something just happens. and then the thought labels it as a decision.
Intention- Theres isn't something that has an intention, such as me or you. But I do believe there is Just intention. A power moving, a force, God, Something that holds life together and if we want to label that intention or a plan well then thats fine by me.
Free will- There isn't someone like a birddog who has or possesses free will. There is Will, And its whatever is happening. Yes and No at the same time.
Choice and Control. "I" have none :)
B) I don't have ideas about it. I cannot say. Because if I did then that would just be ideas and labels of it and not the actual thing. So im not even going to try to describe the thing that cannot be understood. Its a mystery.
C) Life or "this" continues to happen if I hold up to my "responsibilities" or not. I am not making this all come together, like "Birddog" is not responsible for all of this right now lol. I cannot find anything that I am responsible for. How can I be responsible for anything even if I wanted to be?
D) I think I did, If you want examples from something specific just let me know.
6) Anything to add?
I would love to hear from anyone who has any questions/ anything you would like to add
