Hi Sarah,
Rightyho then. ;)
So - just to sum up can you answer these in as much detail as you feel is necessary. Theres no rush! :)
Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No, there is no separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form and it does never exist.
Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience.
Describe it fully as you see it now.
The illusion of separate self is a stream of thought that builds a center from which all experiences are interpreted. There is always the experiencing and then comes after that the interpretation of that experiencing from the illusory self which is just a constructed story.
How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
It feels very liberating to just experience the life flawing as it is. The difference from before I started this dialogue is that there is now no one here being any more interested in any extraordinary experience. There is an acceptance of whatever is happening now. No resistance of any kind.
What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
The following question:
“Is there still a need for endless happiness? If so, what would want that, and what is wrong with right now? “
Was the trigger that pushed me over and made me look through the illusory self.
Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your experience.
Events in life just happen, there is no decider, someone to intend anything, no chooser or controller of any kind. There is no one making anything happening. There is direct experience then a thought comes in and makes ownership of that experience. I sat down relaxed and has witnessed all that is happening around me. A few moment later the attention was not directed on any object. All that was there was like a movie. There were people passing away, thoughts coming and going. There was no judgment no opinions. Just witnessing. No one setting there and doing the witnessing or intending to do the witnessing. Just experiencing. Just life flowing.
Anything to add?
I have to thank you for your kindness and patience with me.
Ciao Ramses