By universal consciousness i simple mean consciousness that is not owned by anyone, not owned by an "I".What does the term 'universal consciousness' point to? Is this an aspect of direct experience?
As long as i remember i have believed that i was in control of my own decisions and thoughts. That I was the one who took the decisions. What i have realized is that i can not from direct experience say that this is truth. What i can see from direct experience is that thoughts arise out of nowhere by them self, effortlessly. All actions in life, is simple an extension of thoughts. First come the though, then the action. The illusion of an "I" must have started in the moment that i got the thought that "I" was the one who was in control of the thought and actions. That i was my thought. That i was the thought. The illusion was trying to persist by claiming that at least there most be an individual awareness that is experience all this. However what i found that this idea about individuality is just another thought, the thought of "I AM" that arises by itself. I guess the language plays a big role in keeping the illusion alive. From moment i as a baby opened my eyes, people has pointed at me as said "you" again and again.2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
Are you able to describe this more in terms of direct experience? I realize the 'when it starts' is question is hard to answer entirely from experience (unless you have a particularly good memory) but can you say anything about how the illusion was working in recent experience? What is it like to be taken in by the illusion? How did the illusion persist, what patterns/mechanisms kept the illusion alive?
Regards
Henrik
