I can't quite get "there"

[jeffdilbeck]

Another guide suggested these questions:

What did you experience at the moment you awoke?

Describe your experience in the hours and days following awakening.

Sorry for the extra questions here, we have a strict confirmation process before aftercare.

Please explain is detail.

:)

[cummins55]

I didn't have a MOMENT. I recognized what was being pointed at. IF I awoke it was here in this process and it was quiet. happy. I saw the seperation of my mind, all tangled up in the labels, from the "I" that simply watches. Then when you said how we're all the one life, I saw everyone as living one life. That made me really look at people in their eyes, looking for who they really are, and I recognize them!
So I feel good. I didn't have a burst of energy and awoke and everything sang to them. THAT is what I been chasing. All those dramatic awakening moments I read about. That didn't happen. My Ego would have loved to tell the tale. I don't talk about it, there's no need. It's been very simple. I see things differently. A couple of days ago I looked at myself in the mirror and I did'nt recognize who was starring back, for a moment. I'm more genuine with people. I don't have to perform anymore. I'm surrendered. Nature is just alive to me! The trees and sky are so energetic! Since I started this I was given the instructions not to read or watch anything spiritual until the process is done. That's been an easy transition. There are no more spiritual rituals. This is the spiritual ritual. Sitting in my room with family around doing mundane things. Chopping wood and carrying water. ;D I don't know what I'm ready for. But I'm ready

[jeffdilbeck]

Is there an I who simply watches?

[cummins55]

The "I" who simply, quietly watches. Yes

[jeffdilbeck]

In reality, is there a difference between seeing and the one which sees? Is attention an "I" when it goes where it goes?

[cummins55]

Really Seeing is an internal knowing. Really hearing is an internal knowing. "I" is the flow of energy. "I" listens and knows. The "I" is the source connected to The Life. It is The Life, the source. The one who sees, is a vessel for the "I". When the "I" goes it is life. Connected to All.

[jeffdilbeck]

:-D

[jeffdilbeck]

Hey,

I've heard it said that the Buddha has no feet, and a good teaching leaves with no legs to stand on. :)

One of my peers had another question, and thank you for your lovely patience.



What is the difference between the "I which is the source" and "the life"?

<3

[cummins55]

There is no difference. It's one. Life is the source we are the life the source. We tap in. It's the universe in us all. The "All" is us. Life, Source, All is us as us.
I like the Buddha story with nothing to stand on, I completely get that and I'm exilerated by it. I have nothing to stand on and it's liberating.

No patience is required here. This is awesome!!

[jeffdilbeck]

Hey!

Is the experience or seeing stored in a you?

[cummins55]

Hi,
Yes it is. Everything is stored in me to be experienced. If I have not experienced them fully they remain alive in me until I do. I have followed Scott Kiloby's Living Realization modality to know that's true.
Is "Seeing" stored in me? Like awakening? I can tap into it there. Which I do my best, expecially when that puffed up feeling arises.
Is looking at things stored in me? Yes, this vessel carries every experience it has had. It's what has "labeled" me.

[jeffdilbeck]

So there's a you?

[cummins55]

It is all one life. The extension of the life in this vessel is labeled linda. I am everything

[jeffdilbeck]

Are you everything? Can you tell me more about this? Don't tell me what others have told you. Tell me what is felt.

[jeffdilbeck]

I sent you a pm also. :)