What I might suggest at this point is to focus on the felt sense, again and again, especially when triggered or dissatisfied. Drop analyzing and striving including for "no-self" and become less and less avoidant of the true felt sense. I think this will deepen and harmonize, bring what is seen more into the heart and flesh of life.
Here are some different options to continue exploring and "homing":
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Three weekly free zoom meetings which offer a space to listen, ask, share and offer guidance around awakening, as and if the inclination arises, with friend and fellow guide Vince Schubert. Please contact Vince Schubert via email:
vinceschubert@gmail.com for a link and schedule. Or check his web page
https://1ness.info/
2)
Simply Awake app - Free app for your phone that contains dozens of meditation that will help you to keep looking deeper.
Also a great video from Angelo Dilullo on this process and how it deepens on its own, if not resisted, YouTube: Simply Always Awake "Self and No-Self":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3X_Xpd10pV0&t=38s
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If you're interested in the 10 fetters Buddhist model (what we did here pertains to the first 3) go to Kevin Shanilek's website for information:
https://simplytheseen.com/
Also a good video conversation with Ilona and Kevin Shanilek:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xWfBHN6oRk
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Todd and Pernille Lent Damore offer many videos on each fetter, from a different, more psychologically minded approach, on their YouTube Channels:
Unfettered Mindfulness and The Awakening Curriculum
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Some people like Kevins approach more, some like theirs, some both in different ways.... In continuation of Kevins approach there is also Christiane Michelbergers "Finding Awakening" community on Facebook:
https://www.facebook.com/share/g/1Av8vfhMct/
And Craig's Fetterfree group, free of charge weekly meetings exploring fetters mainly in Kevins approach:
https://www.facebook.com/groups/715430672860996
4)
POK Perfectly Okay.Org:
https://perfectlyokay.org/ - A large, free of charge, supportive awakening community that has many different modalities and meetings, generally free of charge.
Every second Wednesday Becca (another LU guide and friend) and I hold free of charge meetings there for people who work with other people, as guides, or in processes that might combine awakening and therapy or healing.
https://www.facebook.com/groups/1112255896719535
Speaking of that, once this settles and if there is a sense of appreciation and gratitude around the LU procoess, you might want to guide others in LU. Guiding also guides us - can bring up blind spots and areas where we might benefit from looking freshly. I mentor new guides in LU and could mentor you if you want to embark on guiding at some point.
5)
Becca and I also have a weekly sangha called Awake Collective. It is relatively new and it seems focused on very raw and honest exchanges, energetic aspects of aweakening process, and shadow work, in a context where some people have seen through seperate self and some have not, but everybody have a lot to contribute have done a fair amount of shadow work and/or inquiry, waking up and growing up processes.... This group has a members fee, but anyone who sincerely wanna be a part can, no matter what their economic situation is.
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Finally Ilona Cuinaite who was one of the founders of LU has I believe monthly meetings.
https://ilonaciunaite.com/
Finally you are welcome to continue writing me here on this thread if you want to share, ask, etc. This process can sometimes have some "childhood diseases", such as nihilism (the mind concludes nothing matters and life and relationships become flat or depressing). If that happens it's good to talk with others who are on the path.
