The Gate

That's a lot. Okay.

A Worksheet on death could help, yes.

Grief happens when we argue with what is, when we want it different.

Here's One of Katie 's videos on grief:

https://youtu.be/h7JF8r3j11E?si=-a1nzkzsRuiFzmqI


Loving,

Can't seem to get very far with work sheet on death.Fear has come up the first thing upon awakening ,I see it ,don't really know what happens but it's gone.I know in my childhood it was through dreaming,through telling myself stories that I bypassed pain and fear..but when this fear comes up it isn't through thought that I avoid ..but I recognize a resistance in the moment and when I try to bring it back up it doesn't present itself.I can meditate for hours in this sort of void...my life seems to be this sort of void..no interest in anything...

Maybe try the DropBox pointer Zooming in on Death again.

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/ksba3zhi9uuz ... hsk1a?dl=0

Loving,

Big storm ,missed electricity for 2 days .since there are a lot of trees still lots of work from the damage of heavy snow.Still practicing DE .Difficult seeing my son sufferring so much ..intense times.

Just take care & write when you can.

You don't need to look with DE all day. Just regular practices.

Loving,

You think you think...but no..I don't...ha ha ha.

Where was this big storm? We have not had snow in Colorado and I would like to. It's been 75°

Loving,

I think it hit in a lot of places in Quebec..over 300.000 without electricity..cause by heavy snow.

I've been depressed and nothing to say...

Sorry you're depressed.

The Work of Byron Katie is good for that.

Do you see a therapist?

Take care of yourself and check in when you're ready.

Loving,

No I don't see a therapist.Things seemed to have moved somewhat this am. It's when I wake up that things are more clear for me and this morning what came through was I deserved peace..I still can feel this pull to bring me in fear ...and the fear itself is telling me I need it? The fear itself is the fear of letting go.

Since we don't offer therapy here, all I can suggest is Ilona's guided video on fear that I've sent before.

https://youtu.be/jKX1llYtlKE?si=6a6_ubh7y4-erDjr

Loving

More like the mental itself is in fear..I feel that this whatever it is just has to tire itself out.

I'm sure I've sent this before.

Here is an anxiety exercise that focuses a person in the present, and in a part of the brain that cannot do fear ir anxiety. Basically, go through each sense and say (or think) "I see/ hear/ feel/ taste/ touch ______________." A minute or two of each and usually anxiety is gone.

I see the couch.
I see the keyboard.
I see the glass. Etc.

I hear the train.
I hear the keys clacking.
I hear my breath. Etc.

I feel the couch under my butt.
I feel my fingers on the keys.
I feel the cold air. Etc.

I taste a metallic taste in my mouth.
I taste the coffee.
I taste the food. Etc.

I smell the humidity in the air.
I smell my husband's shampoo.
I smell the soap. Etc.

As far as I can tell, the only time this doesn't work is when someone won't do it.

Loving,