DE - too much to mention it all
Thoughts - It's nice, warm log fire, clock chiming, another half an hour before anyone else wakes up.
It seems to sit in the background and claims it runs the show after the fact.
Because I want to help you recognize the difference between what is conceptual and what is actual, I want you to notice how that statement is Not actual.
To be accurate (and literal), you would say "Thoughts arrive claiming ownership. Some sensations happen."
Yes, thoughts come and claim pretty much everything.
the delusion of agency still persists.
It's only a delusion if you believe it. An illusion is when your senses inform you incorrectly. (and you know it)
Yes, it's now an illusion, but the illusion tricks me most of the time.
(no decisions, choices, intent, responsibility) is not my lived experience.
Yes it is. As is the illusion of agency. It's just that you are focussing on the illusion more.
Are there moments when you feel confident that you could trust that life will deliver...?
OK, it's my lived experience, but the illusion is smothering it.
Life delivers - Yes. Confidence and trust don't feel like the issue, it's more having no clue how to let the illusion go, or better put as seeing through it more clearly and consistently.
Perhaps better put as not experiencing the teaching but somehow being the teaching.
That's too difficult. Just experience life-ing.
Always happy to keep things simple - life-ing it is.
J❤️🤣
