Feeling Trapped in the I thought

[SundanceMuc]

Sorry, but i don't understand ButtChair and cant find a translation to it. I dont understand the whole sentence.

[Anastacia42]

Oh! Maybe I haven't given it, yet. Here:

So, here is a pointer that may force you to look, not think:

ButtChair

Please LOOK for any place where your butt ends & the chair begins.

Is there any clear dividing line between them? Or only the Sensation with no clear division?


It is simple direct & nonverbal. Just LOOK.

Then write what is true.

I did only this and nothing else for 3 months and then saw. It crept up on me while I was sitting at a stoplight. Seeing often happens when we are simply relaxed and looking. I should say, it ONLY happens when we are relaxed and LOOKING. All thinking is useless. Truly.

Loving,

[Anastacia42]

Sorry. This sentence has typos.

Write herewith is found, even if it's the same.

It should have read

Write here what is found, even if it's the same.

Answer: can you find any separate "self?"

If not, how does that FEEL?


Loving,

[Anastacia42]

Hi,

Watching this I thought of you. At about 25 or 30 minutes they talk about trauma.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=CLtDXk35AWY ... b-AzsiTtbk

Loving

[SundanceMuc]

Hi Stacy

Is there any clear dividing line between them? Or only the Sensation with no clear division?

There is only the sensation with no clear division. I worked a lot in that with the Rupert Spira Meditation “The borderless, empty sky of awareness”, which gave me my first profound insights. In Meditations i can feel very well, there is no body/ no matter - only sensation. But i am not able to transfer this in daily life, i am so much into experience and thoughts i forget everything about.

I looked another inquiry video from Ilona this morning. I can see there is no self.

But after the video when i was thinking about what to do today, intense feelings of restlessness started, which grew into fear. I tried to concentrate on releasing the contractions, but i was bombarded with thoughts. I sat down to meditate and calm down but it was hard, i could not even slow my breath down.
I decided to hear a guided meditation from Rupert Spira, but it took some time until i was able to slow my breath and get calmer.

I struggle very much with all the thinking, especially about the future and what to do to improve my life.
My nervous system is very strained, not only now in my actual crisis, i was always a nervous person who can't really rest.

Love,
Sundance

[Anastacia42]

Try these:

There is a Direct Looking process for fear.

https://youtu.be/jKX1llYtlKE?si=jHXuuyyVtp7c-1R2

And this one:

https://youtu.be/fSTT8nc8cvQ?si=Alcukpbi7SUlXpfi

Loving,

[SundanceMuc]

Hi Stacy,

Thank you for the youtubes!
I will try them...

Love,
Sundance

[SundanceMuc]

Hi Stacy,
to be honest i feel disappointed in this process. This i why i didnt wrote the last days and also thought to stop with all activity here.
The last times i wrote very much about my intens emotions and i expeded a personal guiding through that. It really doesnt help me to get a link to another experiment, to Byron Katie Inquiry or to another Video - without any personal words and hints. I did all of this (Videos, Inquiry, books) for years, before i asked for help in this forum.
When i applied for LU i had a "normal" depression. But through circumstances in my life the last weeks a lot of fear came up. The last week all of this felt more and more unbearable.
I recognized other guides like Ilona or Vince are working also on emotions in their guiding process.
But maybe its to much for you to guide more personal, as you are doing so many guidings here at once.

But is it then possible to switch to another guide?
Thank you for everything you tried to help me in this process!

Love,
Sundance

[Anastacia42]

Good morning,

Thanks for letting me know what is going on.

We don't do therapy here & that seems to be what you're asking for. That's why I send videos on fear & links to Byron Katir. Those work. But all of that only works if you do it.

I point. You LOOK. That's all.

Yes. you can certainly ask for another guide. My style is not for everyone.

PM Vince or another guide you'd like to try.

Or I can post your request on our guide's page and see who is available.

Much love,