All you need is love. Requesting Elad as guide.

[Elad]

Wonderful!!!

This is it....

Continue atending to how everything happening by itself, even choices, even feelings, even values, even where attention goes....

And continue notice whatever fear and doubt is there - also by itself...

It is happening :)

[Busahug]

Hey Elad,

I’m continuing the practice spontaneously and staying aware of the thoughts that come up—like the thought that I need more exercises and should practice in a more structured way, otherwise I won’t practice enough or might stop altogether.

In reality, the practice continues in moments of awareness throughout the day, and there’s more and more clarity in seeing the gap between the thought of choice and the fact that things just happen.

This morning, a will to engage in structured practice arose, and I practiced the hand-turning exercise again. It was interesting to see how this time it was experienced much more clearly—how there is no “I” that chooses. There’s still curiosity about how it happens, but now there’s a new openness to discover, and less clinging to the autonomous verbal explanation.

I also noticed that, in general, this week I’ve been less reactive when confusion or lack of clarity arises—there’s more curiosity. It feels like magic to see how it keeps opening up, a little more each time.

[Elad]

Lovely, lovely!

Keep seeing how things happen by themselves, even "selfing", even doubt, even ideas about practice.

And the curiosity about "where does it all come from, what is moving everything?" is great. Keep looking/feeling into that mystery in direct experience!

And also, look at the sense of self, without trying to change it, see through it, or anything. What does it really consist of? Does it move or change, if so how?

WIth this last instruction the pull to intellectualize can be strong... Remember that is not at all the point. All we are here to do is ASK and LOOK/FEEL/EXPERIENCE - in intimate direct experience.

[Busahug]

Hi Elad,
I wanted to share that I’ve been continuing to practice noticing how things happen by themselves, and lately I’ve been seeing how viewing it this way helps me feel more compassion.
It’s really freeing when I become aware of the judgments that arise when my mind is caught in the belief that there is a “me” who chooses, and also an “other” (not me) who chooses….

I really appreciate the opportunity to have your guidance here, and the chance to explore and be curious about direct experience in this way.
I’d love to hear what you suggest for continuing the practice ❤️🙏🏻

[Elad]

Hi R, beautiful! You are right there, looking the heart of the matter...

For the next day take 5 minutes periods - as many as you like - with a timer. In each of these periods look at ONE of the following questions (you can intuitively select between them each time):

- What is the next thought ?

- What is the next "self action" ?

- Is there a self intervening in anything ?

- Can I predict the next thought or movement or action?

- When will a separate self show itself?

Play with this, let me know what happens....

[Elad]

Hi R :)

How is the process moving?

If you haven't yet, at this point I suggest to listen (or re-listen) to the two last "Enlightnening Quotes" videos and let me know what happens.

And here is a message for all my guidess, since vacation is coming soon:


Dear guidees,

I will be taking a month of vacation, including from guiding, from May 26th to June 27th. You might want to use the time until May 26th to inquire with great wholeheartedness and beginners mind, maybe "the Gateless Gate will be passed". You might also want to update both of us on where you are in the process, and what is experienced as your wishes and needs now, if any - happy to hear from you before I leave. If during my vacation you feel a need to be supported by an LU guide, two of my trusted fellow guides will be available. During that period, contacting them might also be an opportunity to the get a different input - we never know what input, what energy, will suddenly make what is clear clear.

Fellow guides:

Alan: alan.home.mailbox@gmail.com
Becca: becca@supportedawakening.com

🙏

Hi R, beautiful! You are right there, looking the heart of the matter...

For the next day take 5 minutes periods - as many as you like - with a timer. In each of these periods look at ONE of the following questions (you can intuitively select between them each time):

- What is the next thought ?

- What is the next "self action" ?

- Is there a self intervening in anything ?

- Can I predict the next thought or movement or action?

- When will a separate self show itself?

Play with this, let me know what happens....

[Elad]

Hey R,

Had an impulse to check in on you here. You spoke of awakening in the sangha last time. You spoke of moments of just seeing - as opposed to being identified and reactive within a story. So - how is it going in terms of the work here? Is there a separate "I" anywhere that can choose to just see, or choose to be identified and reactive? Is there an enduring self that enduringly is identified and reactive or enduringly just sees? Is there any kind of you in control of your life, who can choose and control, thoughts, feelings, actions? Or is there just the mystery, sometimes manifesting as clarity of seeing, sometimes manifesting as the dream of identification (this is me, this is mine, this me who is outside of life and can do better or worse in relation to it) and reactivity?

What are your most sincere and clear answers? And how does it feel to express them?

[Busahug]

Good morning Elad,

First of all, thank you so much for writing to me and for checking why I hadn’t replied to your messages here 🙏🏻
Last night I finally managed to log in from the computer and saw your messages. I felt such joy reading them, and at the same time such sadness to see them there unanswered…

I feel that this little turn of events is a meaningful lesson for me on the path of awakening.
It touches me to notice how it didn’t even occur to me to reach out to you directly and ask why the correspondence had stopped — and how quickly my mind’s assumption was taken as “truth.” Since yesterday I’ve been reflecting on what created this kind of blindness to reality and kept me from seeing other possibilities.
It’s a joy to return to practice with your guidance.

This morning I practiced for five minutes with April’s questions.

It’s powerful to feel the surprise in the direct knowing that I cannot predict the next thought. It’s so different to grasp this conceptually in the head compared to experiencing it directly.
I’ll continue with the exercises you suggested in the messages I hadn’t received and will write here again later. I’d be grateful if you could reply here when you have a chance, so I can be sure I’m receiving your messages ❤️🙏🏻

With love and appreciation,
R❤️

[Elad]

Good morning R,

First of all, thank you so much for writing to me and for checking why I hadn’t replied to your messages here 🙏🏻
Last night I finally managed to log in from the computer and saw your messages. I felt such joy reading them, and at the same time such sadness to see them there unanswered…

I feel that this little turn of events is a meaningful lesson for me on the path of awakening.
It touches me to notice how it didn’t even occur to me to reach out to you directly and ask why the correspondence had stopped — and how quickly my mind’s assumption was taken as “truth.” Since yesterday I’ve been reflecting on what created this kind of blindness to reality and kept me from seeing other possibilities.

This is a beautiful and valuable takeaway!


This morning I practiced for five minutes with April’s questions.

It’s powerful to feel the surprise in the direct knowing that I cannot predict the next thought. It’s so different to grasp this conceptually in the head compared to experiencing it directly.

Exactly, the direct intimate experience is the absolute key. And the thought patterning/looping can keep replacing and replicating alive seeing with "ego story of knowing"/believing in ever more subtle ways.

I’ll continue with the exercises you suggested in the messages I hadn’t received
R❤️

Perfect.

and will write here again later. I’d be grateful if you could reply here when you have a chance, so I can be sure I’m receiving your messages ❤️🙏🏻

How about we make an appointment, that if we seemingly don't hear from the other for more then a few days/a week max, we check in?

[Busahug]

Yes, that would be wonderful. Thank you, Elad. I really appreciate your kind suggestion and the care behind it 🙏✨

[Elad]

🤍

[Busahug]

Hi Elad,

I practiced several times with the reflection on the question:

What is the next “self action”?

In the first two times, my experience was that I didn’t really understand the question
or what it was pointing to,
and I felt a strong urge to ask you to explain it.

On the third time, it suddenly felt clear:
there are actions happening,
and there are moments when it’s possible to simply see them happening.
on the outside, like blinking or a movement of the body,
or on the inside, like thoughts or feelings.
That’s it. That’s what I see.

And now again the wondering comes up — did I really understand the question?
It shifts so quickly between a clear, bright moment and a moment of doubt…

[Elad]

Beautiful, you are doing well.

Continue to look, and let these moments of clarity infuse life.

Also:

In the moments where it is seen that there is no self standing outside of the whole, that the whole is taking care of itself, how does that feel?

Try to be on the lookout for moments where there is a stronger feeling of separate self. When they are there, investigate, what is this supposed self?

[Busahug]

Hi Elad,
I’d like to share something I’ve been noticing in the practices. When I am relaxed and open to the experience, I don’t see any separate self — and that feels freeing. Even though I understand this cognitively, the direct experience keeps surprising me again and again: how actions just happen by themselves.

I keep being curious about when a separate self shows up, and I’ve noticed that when an unpleasant experience arises and I react to it automatically, it’s from the perspective of a separate self. The “I” feels real and solid when there is an attempt to control the unpleasant experience.

I am also noticing that in moments when I become aware of the impulse to act, sometimes the habitual action changes. For the first time, I can observe this not through the thought of “I am choosing,” but rather something new happens — something different from the automatic habit, when there is awareness and attention to what is going on. This really interests me to continue exploring, because in those moments I feel it allows for less struggle and opens more possibility for the right action to simply happen.

[Elad]

Hey Roni, very beautiful!

The “I” feels real and solid when there is an attempt to control the unpleasant experience.

Good catch.

The next times it happen, explore with shifting attention from the I/other(s) beliefs/judgements/story to playfully and shortly attending to what is happening in sensation: What can be felt, heard, seen, tasted, etc prior to labeling it - what happens with experience? Also play with replacing thoughts about "I" with "verb language without I" and/or "descriptive language without I": "Sensation x in body part y is happening", "thinking x, w, z is happening", "looking down is happening", "hearing a hum is happening" etc.

Play with all that many times in different situations, let me know what happens.




Also look:

When there is the experience of a "conrtrolling unpleasent self", is there actually a self there? Or just the habitual judgement/belief? Is it in fact "the same self-experience" or every time this happens? Or thoughts and sensations believed to be "the same", but looked at closer just what is happening now?