Hello Here Now

[EVP]

Hi Stacy,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

There was/is an idea of me…a character, if you will.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

It starts at birth - we are given a name, we are taught names, words, labels, emotions, history - these things make up the script of the character interacting with the other characters on the stage. Everything in this world imprints on the character, to measure, compare, what is more, what is less, what is good what is bad - etc. All labels overlaid to veil the no-thing that is beneath. When I stop fighting and struggling and trying to figure out what is what and why and how and on and on and just - be still, follow/trace all things, thoughts, emotions, sensations…etc - it all flows back to the same no-thing. Not good, not bad, no thing to define, no thing to defend nothing to figure out - just presence and quiet.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

It feels light to see this, like the heaviness and spinning of searching and not finding is lifting.
The difference from when I started this dialogue is that I now see more clearly to just allow everything in my experience to just happen - It was becoming clearer that to “surrender” to EVERYTHING, all thoughts, events, emotions, sensations - to stop measuring (judging) and be still - but it is as if in the last couple of weeks something subtly shifted in that I immediately become aware of the inner resistance and how I engage with resistance. This awareness brings release.

4

) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

It was not one last bit, it was more like a quiet realization of an inner flow - waking up very slowly from a deep sleep and opening the eyes.

5) Describe decision & give examples from experience.

Describe intention & give examples from experience.

Describe free will & give examples from experience.

Describe choice & give examples from experience.

Describe control & give examples from experience.

What makes things happen? How does it work?

What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

6) Anything to add?

A few weeks ago I could have described all these things with certainty and provided detailed examples. I've been looking at these for the last 2 days and I haven't a clue as to how to answer - I started to answer but stopped and could not continue as nothing I think feels real. I just don't know what any of these things are anymore.

Ciao
-E

[Anastacia42]

Understandable.

Do those idea in Question 5 exist in reality?

And please answer what, if anything, you are responsible for.

After these are complete, will share with other guides, who may have questions.

Loving,

[EVP]

Hi Stacy,

Do those idea in Question 5 exist in reality?

They do not - if what you mean by reality is what I see as the no-thing presence.

And please answer what, if anything, you are responsible for.

I am responsible for what I see.

Ciao
-E

[Anastacia42]

Do those idea in Question 5 exist in reality?
They do not - if what you mean by reality is what I see as the no-thing presence.

"Reality" is a slippery term. I mean Direct Experience.

Others may have questions about #5 We'll see

And please answer what, if anything, you are responsible for.
I am responsible for what I see.

Can you control what is seen?

Can you turn seeing on & off?

If not. how can you be responsible for what you see?

Loving

[EVP]

Hi Stacy,

And please answer what, if anything, you are responsible for.
I am responsible for what I see.

A thought presents (direct experience of thought) - I see a thought, the thought itself is a measurement of something from memory-past or of a fiction-future which may or may not move into feeling/emotion... I am responsible to see it, which brings awareness, I do nothing - simply allow...this could be seen as a choice or simply a movement into awareness.

Can you control what is seen?

Thats an interesting question - consciousness influences what is seen and how it is experienced - is that what you consider control in this question? I am controlling my fingers to move across the keys to type these words - conscious movement. How I see, feels very different - more like a dance, more fluid and relevatory.

Can you turn seeing on & off?

Seeing happens - not sure what is meant about on and off??? When I sleep I turn off and my conscious awareness is asleep - perhaps I am seeing in another way, but as far as my direct experience, I have turned off seeing. In my daily life I enter into different states, in which I may or may not be aware of seeing- is this considered to be turning it off or simply shifting awareness?

If not. how can you be responsible for what you see?

If I want to arrive at a specific location - I am responsible to follow a certain route. I wanted to remove all obstacles to peace so I am responsible to follow a certain route, which became a series of movements into an awareness/awakening of what was previous hidden by my habits, beliefs, perceptions, learned information etc.

Ciao
-E

[Anastacia42]

Well, no. None of the above.

If there's no "you,," how could "you" possibly be responsible for anything?

Check your gut for a "body yes" or "bodyno" as you read what you wrote above. What is found?
Loving

[EVP]

Hi Stacy,
It seems that I am getting lost in the words that are used here with the questions and the LU process. My TBI has left me with a brain that is quite autistic in nature and will cognize and organize words in my thoughts in ways which I have observed is not the norm and quite often I just don't understand what is really being asked. I follow Pernille and resonate with her awakening videos for autistic - probably better use of time for me. I find that working many of the questions here make me confused and create stress and tension that I am beginning to find counter to why I came here. I do practice ACIM and have recently found Ken Wapnick and Keith Kavanagh, both teach the course in a manner which has helped in my awakening into recognizing the illusion of the self. The language I have come to associate in my practice is applied differently than is used here, which is probably why I get confused and feel tension. I am grateful for your time and willingness to help in this process but I'm signing off LU. With love and gratitude,
Ciao
-E
A little Rumi as I go...
“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase “each other”
doesn’t make any sense.
The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don’t go back to sleep.”

[Anastacia42]

I understand. You have some exceptional challenges.

I have never heard of anyone waking up with ACIM and I was a student for 25 years.

But Pernille and Todd are great. Use those, for sure!

Let me know how it goes, if you can.

Much love,