Every moment is perfect

[Fin]

Thank you xxxx

[Magdalena]

Take care
XOXO

[Fin]

My dear Magdalena

Thank you so much, so much has been questioned and seen though- and it’s just now both the Rocky horror show and a comedy show - I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. But it’s okay - your kindness is incredible- may I stay here a while longer while all this nonsense comes up to be seen.

There was a belief once I saw the illusion it was going to be unicorns and rainbows, raining love, money, health- this is the comedy show.

May I stay with you as my guide albeit fin feels she’s let you down, shame and guilt, needs to be seen through.

Thank you
Fin ❤️

[Magdalena]

Dear Fin,

Whatever is happening, it's all good. Do stay here as long as you like. It never crossed my mind that things should be unfolding any differently - as if we could know how they need to unfold.

I'm here for you - whether you wish to share anything or not.

If I can be of any help, just let me know.

[Fin]

Thank you ❤️

[Fin]

Good morning Magdalena,

It’s been somewhat intense but very revealing. Once it was clear that Fin was but the character in the story- then the whole of the trauma began to show up both external triggers and internally. She began to bypass recognizing that there was no validity here - and then eventually started to listen to that.

The stories revealed so much - the interconnected nature, how it all manifested, how Fin managed to survive and get her needs met. Once allowed to be seen the stories began to disappear- there is still some shock showing up - but clearly seeing the illusion or delusional aspects has given clear liberation.

It’s clear that Fin could not have understood this story- but free of a self it was seen for what it is. It was also clear that this story had to be seen, it’s not rainbows and unicorns- but just seeing it for what it is and a sense of deep gratitude for the courage and resilience of this character. She is now free.

Right this moment the sun is shining, there is some peace- and a knowing and understanding that whatever shows up is exactly right for that moment. The seeking now has begun again in a new way - something like how to be, but no real clarity- perhaps emptiness- I don’t know- I’ll explore the questions again later to see where they lead.

Thank you - with sincere gratitude-

Fin xx

[Magdalena]

Hello Fin,

She began to bypass recognizing that there was no validity here - and then eventually started to listen to that.

That anything can be bypassed or not bypassed is a story too, isn’t it?

Once allowed to be seen the stories began to disappear- there is still some shock showing up - but clearly seeing the illusion or delusional aspects has given clear liberation.

Can liberation happen anywhere else than in the story?
Was anything/anyone ever in need of liberation?

She is now free.

Was there ever anything other than “freedom”?

whatever shows up is exactly right for that moment.

Could anything ever be/have been any different?

The seeking now has begun again in a new way - something like how to be, but no real clarity- perhaps emptiness- I don’t know- I’ll explore the questions again later to see where they lead.

Fin, this is it. All of it, no exceptions.
Whether it’s asking questions about how to be or nor asking them, this is it.
Life’s living, isn’t it?
Sleeping, eating, working, having a good cry, having a good laugh, seeking in a new way, not seeking… Is there any difference?

Thank you - with sincere gratitude-

You’re very welcome.

[Fin]

Good morning Magdalena

That anything can be bypassed or not bypassed is a story too, isn’t it?

Yes, I can see that now - it’s whatever is coming up - and who is there in any case to bypass- there is anger, with an injustice story- the story is running, it is just this but heavy.

Ignoring it appears to make it stronger- listening to the story produces an angry reaction. But it’s definitely here and running the show right now.

Can liberation happen anywhere else than in the story?
Was anything/anyone ever in need of liberation?

All just concepts - I see that, there is a sense of some relief seeing the stories as the play of life and the tragedy had to play out as it did - another story - because it’s all just now - all stories.

Was there ever anything other than “freedom”?

It was never seen by Fin - but now yes it’s clearly seen there was no do’er , just stories, “freedom “ also being a conceptual story. It’s just this.

Could anything ever be/have been any different?

I don’t think it could of been- once the whole story was seen it was clear that there was a certain theme - and experiences were linked- but it was just all a story- perhaps fin is trying to write a happy ending- there is something here - I don’t know.

Fin, this is it. All of it, no exceptions.
Whether it’s asking questions about how to be or nor asking them, this is it.
Life’s living, isn’t it?
Sleeping, eating, working, having a good cry, having a good laugh, seeking in a new way, not seeking… Is there any difference?

Life is living- and I do love life - the good, bad and ugly - unfolding as it will -

these things can be intense. But nothing lasts forever, and storms tend to be followed by sunshine (however cliched it sounds).

It’s just been intense- thank you for your support.

Fin xx

[Magdalena]

Morning, Fin,

there is anger, with an injustice story- the story is running, it is just this but heavy.

Anger is fine. If you simply try sticking to the anger without repeating the stories that come with it, it may ease it a bit. But if you feel like getting into stories, that’s fine too – everything exhausts itself at some point.
Yes, it is just this too. Not buying into stories can make it less “heavy”.
But then, what is “heavy” – if not just a story on top of a story?

All just concepts - I see that, there is a sense of some relief seeing the stories as the play of life and the tragedy had to play out as it did - another story - because it’s all just now - all stories.

So it appears.

once the whole story was seen it was clear that there was a certain theme - and experiences were linked

Just don’t turn it into a new story – one with a theme or one that makes sense.
When we see experiences as linked, or a story as one that simply had to play out, do we mean that it was all predetermined, had a storyline to start with, and potential learning outcomes or something?
Or do we mean simply that things could only happen in that one way, given the circumstances, past events, the involved people’s personalities, and so on? And that not just at the time when things were happening, but long, long back into the past (which is part of the story, but still)?

- but it was just all a story- perhaps fin is trying to write a happy ending- there is something here - I don’t know.

She may well be, but how things turn out is not within her control – given so many intricately connected circumstances and all. You see that, don’t you?

It’s just been intense- thank you for your support.

You’re very welcome – I’m here for you.

[Fin]

Good morning Magdalena, a crisp chilly morning here, beautiful.

Anger is fine. If you simply try sticking to the anger without repeating the stories that come with it, it may ease it a too – everything exhausts itself at some point.

Thank you for this - i noticed the sensation in the body which was around the heart area - physically the body was tired a bit washed out but not sick - then I noticed that the sensations were assigning a meaning of anger - which were triggering stories- I could see the loop clearly. So I let the stories run like the radio channel you once described. I rested , and now this moment things seem calmer. I can only speak to this moment.

what is “heavy” – if not just a story on top of a story?

Interesting- I had allowed the stories to blend and merge into one big ball of nonsense-

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don’t turn it into a new story – one with a theme or one that makes sense

I was turning it into a new story and thank you for pointing this out - I stopped this immediately once seen - perhaps that stopped the heaviness-

It was becoming a connected story- and possibly fueling the anger - I don’t know.

how things turn out is not within her control – given so many intricately connected circumstances and all. You see that, don’t you?

I clearly see this - I also see the tolerance for inauthenticity has been falling away in her for quite some time.

I noticed during the intensity that they do bring nuggets of wisdom- many old beliefs were broken. Gratitude now for that.

Wishing you a beautiful day,
Fin 🙏

[Magdalena]

Hello, Fin, morning,

I noticed that the sensations were assigning a meaning of anger

The sensations are merely sensations, aren’t they, and habitually being labelled as this or that.

a connected story- and possibly fueling the anger - I don’t know.

Quite likely.

the tolerance for inauthenticity has been falling away in her for quite some time.

That’s OK too, isn’t it, even if some people are not comfortable with it?

Wishing you a beautiful day

You too, have a good day, Fin. :-)

[Fin]

Good morning Magdalena,

My attention right now is looking at these questions, for whatever reason,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

There appears to be a character called Fin - who carried stories of birth, life, loss, suffering- desires, dreams etc. realizing this whole movie is nothing more than a projection of the mind and seeing clearly that all in appearance is just that being created from something, somewhere- Fin being no different to the chair, wall, seat, dog, car, tree- all a projection of consciousness or awareness or something. There was never a Fin and the character for some reason always knew this - and tried to hard to meet expectations of other self’s in a reality she didn’t understand. It’s funny and shocking at the same time.




2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

It’s all a magnificent masterpiece of a magical experience, I can only speak from here. I went through huge anger recently which appears to have clarified something.

I can see the character Fin created a life story as a young child, she became a little separate person as a child and went into the world living her life story which worked until it didn’t- then started searching and seeking for something- which ultimately became a return to her true self - now seeing clearly that the programmed character- Fin - was an illusion.

This is being experienced as a sense of wholeness- seeing and loving the character and experiencing the peace and all manner of experiences , emotions- directly - fully- alive- pure- there is no separation between the inner self and outer reality- it just is.

It’s just this.



3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.


Angry- unburdened, at the same time.
Something was pulling- something was pushing away- it was a battle, which though sheer kindness Magdalena stayed with throughout - there was reactivity- seeing that reality is not what I believed- absolutely everything was questionable- but there was no doubt- there may have been fear and possibly some residue of this is still there- but there is no doubt- who I am and my relationship with reality is not what Fin thought- this has unburdened all responsibility- and fear of not meeting others expectations- because she never could , that’s what’s so funny about all of this. But there is also a sense of shock.


4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

I don’t know- there was something pulling me - I don’t know- in external world fin clearly saw that reality was not what she thought and began to play with this - just an example focusing all attention on something and noticed it showing up everywhere from conversations, media, people- it was clearly seen that reality is not what she thought- it was the questioning of everything. It was also seeing clearly that especially in phone conversations I was speaking to myself- it’s magical.

5) Describe

For all - there is nothing happening- the character Fin believed as a “self” she was responsible for absolutely everything and driving the who show - but it was all an illusion- hence seeking and suffering-


- decision,

Who and what is making the decisions- I don’t know, perhaps an inspiration, perhaps a conversation, I don’t know- but a decision eg tea or coffee is made - a preference perhaps- coffee in morning, tea in afternoon- who knows, interesting to watch though- to worry or not worry, etc. the body/mind system is reactive to everything and it all interacts and somehow creates this incredible illusion of a reality. Until you consider where did a thought of a reality existing come from- this is funny- because it just is - this is it- I don’t know- nobody is there to know- it just is all now - right here - because the character Fin can’t be anywhere else.


- intention,

I don’t know- there appears to be intention, for example right now I am selling my home - where did this intention come from- I’ve no idea where I’m moving to - and there is no fear here - this is bonkers to a self and for some reason feels very natural.



- free will,

No - Fin always knew there was no free will , now looking closer at external world she can see where and how attention can be pulled- how this is being done- I don’t know- because Fin isn’t the do’er here - she appears in situations and experiences for some reason - this is a mystery.


- choice and control.
There is no choice or control. The suffering was certainly connected to Fin believing she had choice and control- trying everything to fix something beyond her control- that’s the self love recognition- fin tried so hard and now seeing there was nothing she could have done- the unburdened relief has opened up into simplicity and something. Is she now trying to create a new story- possibly- it just is. I’ve no idea, just can see thoughts playing out in the head, sensations in body - but now seeing the character as just that - with no idea what the next moment will bring - because she’s just here, and she does travel forward and backwards but it’s getting easier to notice this.


What makes things happen? How does it work? Give examples from experience.

I don’t know. This is the mystery- fin spent 10 years running around the world everywhere to return to the beginning- believing something someone somewhere held the answer - in depth Ayurveda- how the body works - what body- therapy how relationships work- what relationships- conspiracy theories- rabbit holes/ long conversations with others who convinced Fin of their truths- which she always always found unfulfilling and a dead end in - it wasn’t until she stopped everything that something deeper became clear - that it’s a mystery- it is incredible. It’s now possibly only the beginning because life will unfold in the mystery.

What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

Fin as a self felt responsible for everything- she believed it was her duty for the gift of life she was given.

Now there is zero responsibility- it’s just this moment- which somehow good, bad or ugly keeps unfolding- mysteriously.


6) Anything to add?

This mystery will continue to unfold- how to stay in equilibrium with this knowing- I welcome connecting with those who can see beyond a self .

Nothing seems to be coming up right now - but there is a sense of wanting to stay connected in this community.

[Magdalena]

Hello, Fin,

Thanks for your lovely answers, I will now share them with other guides, who may have extra questions for you. It can take some time.

Meanwhile I'm here for you, as always.

Hope you enjoy the rest of the weekend.

[Magdalena]

Morning, Fin,

It appears that the Gateless Gate has been crossed, but is there a Gate? And is there anyone to cross it? And is this an end, a beginning, or both? 😉

There have been no more questions for you, which means that your name will soon be turned blue. Look out for an admin message about the various options available to you now, such as joining our Facebook groups, and other matters.

Feel free to explore the private LU forum you will be able to access once your name has turned blue, join in any group discussions on FB, or make use of LU online support groups run by senior guides free of charge.

See you on the other side. 🙂🙂🙂

[Fin]

Good morning Magdalena,

It appears that the Gateless Gate has been crossed, but is there a Gate? And is there anyone to cross it? And is this an end, a beginning, or both? 😉

And it’s a new day, a beautiful morning. And who’s writing these words 😂

There is now a sense of peace, and Magdalena thank you sincerely for the amazing direction and exploration during what was intense anger- it seems to have disappeared now.

Your presence and kindness so appreciated and authentic, thank you.

See you in blue 😂❤️

Sending love for a magical day ,
Fin xx