Dedicated Seeker Ready For The Push

[Magdalena]

So you're basically saying you're done with the seeking and the identity of Dedicated Seeker, is that it?

Let's see how this works out over the next couple of days, OK?

Also, please pay attention to various mental habits, like worrying about the future, ruminating about the past, and anything else that seems to be the heavier part of Celina's personality.

How are your interactions with people?
Responses to challenging situations?
Seeking coming back?
Anything else?

Is anything different than before, or the same?

Enjoy 😎

[treelight]

Hello, Magdalena! ☺️

So you're basically saying you're done with the seeking and the identity of Dedicated Seeker, is that it?

Let's see how this works out over the next couple of days, OK?

Suffering kept popping up and I was determined to just “be with it”. But it’s hard for me to pretend/lie to myself, and it felt like just more pretending. What I was struck with several days ago and was trying to share with you is that seeking in the future has been a big part of my path and I don’t want to do it any longer. It was all just concepts and noise and… looking for ghosts. I saw it to be impossible and a letting go happened. I wasn’t doing it (I can’t do anything), but that’s what I was sharing about. I can’t really choose to stop or drop anything, but the mind was certainly trying. I guess I’d say stopping can be done, but I can’t do it. I can’t choose if stopping stays or goes. It’s like everything else, not in my control.

Also, please pay attention to various mental habits, like worrying about the future, ruminating about the past, and anything else that seems to be the heavier part of Celina's personality.

Yeah, this continued somewhat. I’m not worried about it right now, I see there’s no control here, and that seeing isn’t done by me or “mine” to keep.

How are your interactions with people?
Responses to challenging situations?
Seeking coming back?
Anything else?

Yes, seeking came back last night to an extent, thought it was not a looking for something in the future. It was just looking.

Is anything different than before, or the same?

Enjoy 😎

Things are the same (and a bit different) 😉 Everything appears in what I am and what I am cannot be categorized, objectified, explained, or touched. It’s not a concept, because concepts appear in it. It feels nice or natural to name it as awareness, but my favorite part about it is that it has no qualities and can’t be found or understood 🤗🤗 IT JUST IS

Lightness is appearing here again and I don’t feel the need to grasp at it, because I don’t expect it to stay. Anything can appear, because I’m not the appearance 🥳

[treelight]

*though it was not a looking in the future

[Magdalena]

Hello, Celina 😊

Suffering kept popping up and I was determined to just “be with it”.

Is there a choice – as in “to be or not to be” with it?

But it’s hard for me to pretend/lie to myself, and it felt like just more pretending.

Pretending? What? How?

What I was struck with several days ago and was trying to share with you is that seeking in the future has been a big part of my path and I don’t want to do it any longer.

Yes, I get it.

It was all just concepts and noise and… looking for ghosts. I saw it to be impossible and a letting go happened. I wasn’t doing it (I can’t do anything), but that’s what I was sharing about. I can’t really choose to stop or drop anything, but the mind was certainly trying. I guess I’d say stopping can be done, but I can’t do it. I can’t choose if stopping stays or goes. It’s like everything else, not in my control.

I see.

Also, please pay attention to various mental habits, like worrying about the future, ruminating about the past, and anything else that seems to be the heavier part of Celina's personality.

Yeah, this continued somewhat. I’m not worried about it right now, I see there’s no control here, and that seeing isn’t done by me or “mine” to keep.

I see.

How are your interactions with people?
Responses to challenging situations?
Seeking coming back?
Anything else?

Yes, seeking came back last night to an extent, thought it was not a looking for something in the future. It was just looking.

Please say more about this.

Things are the same (and a bit different) 😉 Everything appears in what I am and what I am cannot be categorized, objectified, explained, or touched. It’s not a concept, because concepts appear in it. It feels nice or natural to name it as awareness, but my favorite part about it is that it has no qualities and can’t be found or understood 🤗🤗 IT JUST IS

If it has no qualities etc., what makes it “nice or natural to name it as awareness”?
And how do you know where "concepts" appear?

Lightness is appearing here again and I don’t feel the need to grasp at it, because I don’t expect it to stay. Anything can appear, because I’m not the appearance 🥳

😊


Celina, when I asked

So you're basically saying you're done with the seeking and the identity of Dedicated Seeker, is that it?
Let's see how this works out over the next couple of days, OK?

and all the following questions, I wasn’t asking you to try and control or change anything in the way daily life is being experienced.

I was simply asking you to share your experience, that’s all.

Meaning – can you be particularly watchful for moments when some identity or other appears, and what happens next.

Please go through the next couple of days with the same questions in mind – just to see what happens, out of curiosity if that’s possible?

[treelight]

Hi Magdalena 🩷

I want to thank you deeply for your time and for your help looking into reality while we’ve been communicating on this forum.

I have decided to not continue with LU’s way of looking, as it keeps leading me back into seeking things that are illusory. It’s not on you (obviously) and I have no ill will towards the teachings or non-teachings here. It’s just not what is needed at this time.

I wish you well and I thank you again for your time

[Magdalena]

Hello Celina,

Thanks for getting in touch.

If your intuition takes you in some other direction at this point, I completely understand - it is all good.

If you ever wish to continue this conversation, whether with me or another guide, we are not going anywhere.

It's been lovely talking to you.
Be well. 😊😊😊