help me to escape the madhouse ;-)

[NickName]

Dear Lubo,

thanks for the reminder.

This is not serious work, this is as children we discover Wholeness.
There is no place for shame, let's play with a smile , how this sound for you? :)

You are so right. Yet it rather feels frustrating. But I'll try to remember. Seems like amnesia is going on on different levels. ;-)

You find that thoughts and sensation called "head" are not connected, sensation cannot produce thoughts, right? or? :)

In the story when being identified as a person they can. But when just sticking to the senses they can't. As I explored that thoughts and emotions just arise. Nothing more.

yes, of course but you are so vast and you cannot be found as a thing, as a body, sensation, colour, thought...notice that everything which can be found appear by itself effortlessly NOW?
Is there director? what to appear?
This is freedom, is there responsibility ? and for what?
Play with curiosity :) you are already whole and complete and perfect.

Yes, when you ask me and I take time and effort to look there is no responsibility. Everything appears effortlessly. No director. Just sitting in front of the computer, typing. Thoughs about what to write popping up. In the next moment some amnesia comes in and it all feels real and it seems realizing that there is no self never happened. Even while writing these lines. First I was writing "I'm sitting in front of my computer and typing." So a felt "me" is sitting there and writing as if no self realization never happened. Freedom is there when no self is realized, but that that happens very rarely. Most of the time there is identification with self and story and then playfulness is gone.

Have a nice Sunday.

Thanks & regards,
Nicole

[Lubo]

Freedom is there when no self is realized, but that that happens very rarely. Most of the time there is identification with self and story and then playfulness is gone.

I am here, I walk with you, you are not alone.

Play with this for the whole day:
"Thoughts are not an entity, No one is here"

How this sounds/feels as true or no?

Much love
Lubo

[NickName]

Hi Lubo,

I am here, I walk with you, you are not alone.

Thank you for your kind support. <3

Play with this for the whole day:
"Thoughts are not an entity, No one is here"

I read your message quite late today. I will apply this tomorrow.

Have a good night.

Warmly,
Nicole

[NickName]

Good morning Lubo,

"Thoughts are not an entity, No one is here"

How this sounds/feels as true or no?

Every time I say that I feel calm and everything I thought before becomes unimportant. So yes, it feels true.
But still that sticky me-sensation is tricking me. Everytime "I" say..., everything "I" thought...
So in times of looking directly and aware it is clear. But within the next nanosecond I am identified with a "me" who is writing these sentences.

But at least the feeling of frustration went way down.

Thank you,
Nicole

[Lubo]

Hi dear Nicole,
I hear you.

But still that sticky me-sensation is tricking me. Everytime "I" say..., everything "I" thought...

Yes, I know. Go in it , what is there?

[NickName]

Hi Lubo,

Go in it , what is there?

A sensation in my solar plexus that is mistaken for being someone, being "me". Behind that sensation there is nothing. Stillness. No one here.

Thanks,
Nicole

[Lubo]

Wonderful.

Notice this sensation.
Sensation is about something, what is the story?

Notice that in the story we should contract ourselves, our power in order to not show our... power...or something else

What is coming when you look there?

I am with you,
lubo

[NickName]

Dear Lubo,

the story is about me being always the slowest learner and taking ages to learn and grow. Even when things are clear, I need an extra lesson and feel powerless.

Yesterday there was more space between the identifications with the story. The reminder that just because there are thoughts doesn't mean that there is a thinker helps.

Thanks and blessings,
Nicole

[Lubo]

Yes, there is no thinker. Notice the idea that there is separation and that there is someone who is looking others.
Look your husband's eyes and ask
Who is looking who?
Then touch his hands and ask
Who is touching Who?
And notice is there separation at all or there is everything one?

[NickName]

Dear Lubo,

sorry for my late reply. I needed some time for this as well to let it sink in and then I got distracted by life.
But here I am.

Look your husband's eyes and ask
Who is looking who?
Then touch his hands and ask
Who is touching Who?
And notice is there separation at all or there is everything one?

All is taking place in the same space. No different individuals, but touch is happening, looking is happening.
There's still a lot of identification with the story, but when being focused on answering your questions it is clear.

Cheers,
Nicole

[Lubo]

Wonderful, dear Nicole
yes, All is taking place in the same space.
notice that it is more easy to indentifay withe space that with what happans?
From the perspektiva of a space - is there a time?
or this what happens is what happens in the space now?

There's still a lot of identification with the story,

Yes, give it story here, give the painful ones?
What is the character Nicole in this stories, what is this role which is played?
Fir what she is fighting for?
What is her guilt?
What is her shame?
;)

Love
Lubo

[NickName]

Hi dear Lubo,

notice that it is more easy to indentifay withe space that with what happans?
From the perspektiva of a space - is there a time?
or this what happens is what happens in the space now?

There is no time, just here and now.
Future/past can only appear in thoughts. So - in case they appear - they appear in the here and now.

Yes, give it story here, give the painful ones?
What is the character Nicole in this stories, what is this role which is played?
Fir what she is fighting for?
What is her guilt?
What is her shame?

The character Nicole doesn't manage to fully awaken. She sees clearly, but goes back to not knowing. Everything is right in front of her, everything could be so easy, but she chooses pain over freedom. She acts and feels like a victim in certain places of her life although she knows how she could take responsibility and change things for her. She ignores everything she knows. So she must be a fool. She doesn't find it more easy to identify with space than with what happens. Rather the other way around, so she can't keep up with those who can.

A thousand thanks,
Nicole

[Lubo]

Hi dear Nicole,

I hear you.
I am with you.

She acts and feels like a victim in certain places of her life although she knows how she could take responsibility and change things for her. She ignores everything she knows. So she must be a fool. She doesn't find it more

Notice that all this is a story. This is a "Child" in the Oneness.
Hug it and tell to it: "Look my dear child, there is only me, all this here am I. Tell me what is your wish? and let it be fulfilled in the way which is the best for the wholeness"

And after that invite this part to relax in you, to relax here.
And notice how vast are you?

Much love
Lubo

[NickName]

Hi Lubo,

thank your for all your support.

Notice that all this is a story. This is a "Child" in the Oneness.
Hug it and tell to it: "Look my dear child, there is only me, all this here am I. Tell me what is your wish? and let it be fulfilled in the way which is the best for the wholeness"
And after that invite this part to relax in you, to relax here.
And notice how vast are you?

This brings relief and questions. :-)
"There is only me, all this here am I" suggests that there is an I (although vast). Sure, we use that term I for communication. But with effort and exploration "I" realized there is no such I. So "I" should say "realization that there is no such I happened.
If "I" am vast there is an "I". So this whole thing is still confusing. If "I" refer to what I sense (the vastness) this is all sensation = not me.
When thoughts stop, there is being. Also sensing, but not referred to as I. Is this being what you refer to as I and vast?

Warmly,
Nicole

[Lubo]

Nice questions, thank you.
Yes "I" is a word wich can only point, but not to describe.
we are looking that there is no separate inherent self, there is not a thing. But not that there is nothing.
It is obvious that there is ...what is and there is no separation.
Let say when there is a rain there is no separate drops, things with free will , but also 'I' can refer to the rain, event but not a thing, a center.

Do you feel yourself like a center?
Is there bounders? What is behind the bounders? how you know?
Is there a time?