Hello Suma,
Yes, I am still with you. I was busy this morning and was unable to reply then. It is now evening and I am replying to you. If I am unable to reply in a day, don’t stress, I will reply the next day. As for sending the same exercise twice, it doesn’t do you any harm to redo them. Actually it is beneficial to do the exercises again a few days later to see what else is noticed compared to the first time round of doing the exercise.
Actually this exercise reminds me of an event I tried to describe in the beginning of our conversation:
This experience was revealing as there was no prior thought about the issue and this talking just happened. It came out of nowhere. Yet it was totally normal. It would have also happened the same way when my mind was busy thinking something. But it was the first time this came into awareness.
Yes, that is a great example. Next time you are talking to someone, just notice how talking is just happening. Notice if there are any thoughts actually appearing that are prompting what is being said.
Even science has caught up with the idea that decisions are made 6 seconds before they come to the forefront of the mind. You may or may not have seen the following video.
https://vimeo.com/90101368
The following day the sensations kept on changing into a maybe rage or fury kind of energy. This again was nothing personal but at the same time very familiar. These energies had been there all the time in the system and even more energy was necessary to suppress them. Having been more with AE the last days there was enough space for this energy fields to emerge. A kind of churning was going on.
There was a lot of bodily heat involved. Somehow the pali verse
The clearing of beliefs/patterns/conditioning will begin a phase of mixed emotions and intensified sensations. A sense of loss (sadness/tears), anxiety, fear and anger may appear and is natural when old beliefs start falling away. This is how the process works - old conditioning is falling away and the new ‘conditioning’ is not yet in place.
It is all happening in the present moment. The energies are there in the present. There is nothing like past time energy. But who is the one who is writing all this? Who is the one who to whom this experience happen? I can’t name it.
What is the AE of these ‘typewritten words’?
For there to be someone/something experiencing anything, means they would have to be outside of experience/source itself…so that is impossible.
Is there a dividing line between ‘experience/knowing’ and the known? If not, then is there anything experiencing anything?
When you did the seeing of ‘blackness’ exercise did you find an INHERENT SEE-ER? Is there ‘blackness’ AND ‘seeing’ or are they one and the same thing?
Let’s have a look if we can find anyone or anything that is the doer. We’ll do a little exercise on this topic. It has to do with the sense of seeing as well.
Take a few relaxed breaths to let the dust settle, and then:
Look on your right.
Then look on your left.
Finally, bring your head back to centre, close your eyes and look in front.
Okay, so when you look on the right, the view on the right is seen (whatever that is).
When you look on the left, the view on the left is seen (whatever that is).
And then, when you look in front of you with eyes closed, the view in front is seen (ie ‘black space’).
So, when the view on the right is seen, do you have the ‘choice’ not to see? I’m not asking can you ‘choose’ to see something else like another view or ‘black space’ if you close your eyes. The question is, can you turn seeing off? Can you NOT see what is seen?
Same thing with the view on the left, can you NOT see the view on the left?
Same thing with the view in front with closed eyes, can you NOT see the ‘black space’?
Can you turn off seeing?
What did the 'chooser' choose? Did a 'self' choose something?
If you can't choose what you're aware of, then what else is there to choose?
Love, Kay
Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists.