No, there is not. This was the core illusion, because there never was any. Only stories and beliefs about an I.
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
As I have described previously, the illusion of separate self is born when parents teach and "give" their illusion of the separateness to their children. A child gets an identity and the "self is born" when the child is capable of perceiving "herself" as separate from others (physically and psychologically). A person is being born. The person then owns every feeling, thought and sense; becomes the illusionary master of everything. Then there are built layers upon layers upon layers that just make the illusion of separate self stronger and stronger.2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
Some might think that all this is a necessary path to realization that there is no realization, that there never was a me. But then again, "I am" pretty sure that there are children who grow up like this, that there is no me in the way, no separation born ever. Haven't just met any :D
It doesn't feel anything spectacular really. No fireworks or dramatic feelings of joy or anything majestical. It just is. There are just things, thoughts, happenings, life going on.3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
But in a sense, everything is in ease. Feelings of being lighter. No need to attach to any thought or believe any story. So I guess I could say that life is a bit easier now :)
Resistance seems to be non-existent. Only some resistance arising when there is a contradiction on how the body feels and what would "need to be done or achieved" in any given day. But those come and go too. No attachments.
And yes, one more thing. Everything is a bit more vibrant. A bit more living. The moment is more clear. (hard to describe in words)
The drop off the ego (label). That there is no ego! That the ego is another fiction, another story of the mind, a collective one. "I" actually laughed really hard when there was this looking "behind" the ego. PUFF. Dropped.4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
No-one to do anything. No-one to decide anything, no-one to intend anything, no-one to want anything or control anything. All illusion. All these are just labels, nouns, that point to something that would need a "doer" who does all these, but that is an illusion too. Nothing makes things happen, they just happen. I am not responsible fro anything, since there is no I. Of course you cannot kill or harm a person and "you" would be taken responsible for that kind of an action, but that wasn't the idea of the question.5) Can you talk about decision, intention, free will, choice and control? What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.
When "I" watch carefully how the life unfolds in every moment all that there is are reactions to actions; this means that everything is energy - a thought appears out of nowhere, it is being interperated and an acftion might follow. Or an action happens and a thought follows. No rules on that one. An emotion rises (due to a reaction to an energy in a room, or next to another human being or whatever), a thought might arise or not, a reaction might arise or not. Just a flow of life without anyone actually doing anything. Another example is a feeling of hunger - no I needed to do that. Then behavior that supports the physiology of the body (or that does not support it, either way). hunger -> eat. Tired -> sleep. Thirsty -> drink. etc. etc. These are basic physiological functions that only need the brain (and the body of course), but no-one.
Gratefulness. Peace. Love for everything. <36) Anything to add?
Thank you for this guidance.
And oh yes, one more thing. There are no moments. Because a moment would be separated from another moment, which would mean that there would be boundaries somewhere (in time?). No moments, just this. There is actually no time either, just this. Because time is also illusion. The me lives in time (either in the past, or the future). So when the I drops, also the time drops.
This just came from somewhere, had to write it down. :)
Love <3Much love.
Btw, love cannot be sent, because it is everywhere in everything. Sending would mean, that there would be bordered entities who would not be in connection to one another. So no need to send it. It also just is. All is love. All life is love.
Isn't it weird now to say "I love you"? :D Feels weird. An illusion loves an illusion? huh... But "I" guess that there still needs to be pronouns as there are verbs and nouns.
But, I get "your point" on it and the love is here <3
