The Gate

are you asking me if i get sometimes high without smoking? getting high through conversation with pot-friend?
maybe alittlebit

Yes, i was pointing to the fact that your mind/body knows how to feel 'high' without thc.

are all of the feelings empty? without content?

Without cause.
Reality just IS.

i think i made myself this way

You didn't.
If you could choose which thoughts you have, why would you ever choose a shitty thought ?
The way you are is because of a million different circumstances including brain conditioning by everybody and everything.

Can you just sit and consider what is in your direct experience.
Then consider that this is IT.
THIS IS REALITY. Nothing more.
If you have thoughts then they are part of IT. The thoughts not their contents. (their contents are just story)
See if you can do this, say five times over the next 24 hours.

See if you can do this, say five times over the next 24 hours.

nope, i cannot

distractions everywhere

i don;t even need to try to liberate myself or whatever

it's impossible for anyone to try anything

it's time for LSD

(joke)

i've been apathetic for a long periods of time, so now i'm goofy
i need time to regenerate
liberation is impossible for now

maybe in a few days

if you have some more tips for liberation, please, write them
my ego loves advices

advice and knowledge is fucking useless - as you say Ego loves that stuff.
If you'r not serious enough to do the work then you a missing a key ingredient - earnestness.
It's your thoughts that are hoodwinking you, See thoughts for what they are and don't get sucked into the content of them.
i'll keep this thread open - come back when you have earnestness.
LSD may be beneficial or it could freak you and strengthen the ego.

If you're serious about regenerating - get physical - join a gym too. Exercise is good for the brain.

there is physical, material reality
in that reality there is my body, my organism, but there's no me

but there is other reality
abstract reality
of thoughts, feelings and imagination
in that 'ghost', invisible reality I am
maybe as a concept
but i am

but there is other reality
abstract reality

There is reality here and there is what is NOT reality here.
The Thoughts and Feelings are real. THEIR CONTENT IS NOT REALITY. The Reactions to the Content are Real.

of thoughts, feelings and imagination
in that 'ghost', invisible reality I am
maybe as a concept
but i am

Ok think of a Unicorn, see the horn, see the flowing mane, is it white ?
That image is a concept.
You are saying that the You that you are as a concept is as real as the Unicorn ?

thoughts are.
in my case, experiencing them, means experiencing their content
but not experiencing the 'carrier' of te content
i mean, that i cannot experience the thought.
i can only experience the fictional content of it
i cannot make an 'object' of the thought
but i can create an unicorn in my imagination - fictional object - object from the content

or maybe i'm just little sleepy...

Bartek, you don't experience the content of them. Other thoughts Believe the content of the earlier thoughts and the brain then send signals to the body to react - That is your experiencing.
i don't believe you when you say that you don't experience... Oh, i see, you don't EXPERIENCE the carrier, But you do see it, right ?
You do see both the thought and it's content and with some thoughts there is reaction to the contents ?
Is that right ?

but i can create an unicorn in my imagination - fictional object - object from the content

Yes and it is exactly the same PROCESS that makes the fictional object called I

Hey Bartek, i'm pleased that you came back.

FUCK LIBERATION

life wants to start living