Please Guide Me

[Ilona]

Keep reading. 23 more pages.
When you are done you know, you don't ask the question 'how do I know?'
It's clear.

Sending love.

[pranavsood]

There is something beyond words. Something beyond thought.
Beyond story.

Something awe inspiring.

I just had a split second glimpse. And then it was gone.

I was thinking about labeling and wondering what would happen if there was no labelling.

[Ilona]

What would happen if there was no labeling? Yeah.. nothing disappears because of absense of labeling.
But labeling does not have to stop. Like you don't need to stop colours from appearing in order to see.

Sending love

[pranavsood]

Ilona,

I'm done.
Now the thought feels like a story.
Like u are trying to impose order on an unruly world. Like u are trying to force something.

It's far easier to flow. To let it be.

Thought is so uni dimensional. So focussed on 'my' needs.

Somehow, thought still doesn't appear untrue to 'me', despite having see numerous examples of it being untrue.

And there is so much calm. So much peace beyond the thought. Nothing to run after. Nothing to catch.

It's peaceful.

Grateful
Pranav

[Ilona]

Wooo hooo! Nice to hear that you found the calm and peace..

Thought say relative truths that are true in context of thoughts. So what. Do thoughts touch reality? Do thoughts know what is true? Or just say so?

Sending love

[pranavsood]

Ilona,

I'm done. Though a lot of things still need to happen. But they'll happen in due course.

the thoughts still sometimes appear to be true. But they are false. Sometimes it's calm as a beautiful spring day. There is laughter.

And you realise that they are just meaningless voices impeding the flow of life.

It started a few days back. I was too tired of following thoughts. And then it triggered.

But the thoughts still appeared to be true.

Then a few days later, they became partially true.

And finally they have became meaningless today.

They still appear sometimes to be true. But i dont know, I'm done.

It is going to fall off.

Somehow i knew this would happen.

And similarly I know the last bits are going to fall off. And somehow it doesn't even matter if they do or not,
outside thought, life is just ideal. There is nothing to do. Nowhere to go.

When I'm tired / short on sleep , there is no effervescent happiness, but a strange calmness. And sometimes there is effervescent happiness too.

Life is one. Unity.

Any final questions?

Thanks,
Pranav

[pranavsood]

By the way....thanks a lot..!

I don't know what more to say other than thank you. Can't find words fancy enough.

Thank You.

[Ilona]

Oh wow! Sooooo good to hear this. What a journey out of the head into the presence! Delightful to feel your gratitude.
Is there done?
What is that could be done?
Life continues. Stuff is happening. Are thoughts obstructing life or part of life happening? Is believing thoughts obstructing life from happening?

Sending love

[pranavsood]

What is that could be done?

Nothing! It's all a story.

There is still a belief in thoughts. A belief in control. A belief in done.

And somehow it coexists with calmness and nothingness.

It's as if deep inside, I know thought is not true. And each day, more of story gets revealed as a falsehood. And the calmness increases.

But story is still there. It doesn't bother me. It's as if that the remaining story is an invitation to explore. To see if it is true.

But there are more 'in the moment' times. There is joy.
There is knowledge that there is nothing.

U can jump into story and explore anytime. See for yourselves.(sometimes get struck too.) And then look at nothingness and be happy.

I don't know what to call it. Whether it fits the label of done. or any label at all.

[pranavsood]

Does it make any sense to you..??

[Ilona]

You sound relaxed :) nice!
Yes, it makes sense. Story continues, but it no longer sticky. And more and more what seemed true, no longer make sense.
That's a beginning. I finally feel I can rest this case.
How about you?
Are you good on your own?

Sending love

[pranavsood]

I am.

Although, I'd like to pop in and ask, if need arises.

And maybe talk without need too. :)

Thanks a lot, Ilona.

Am glad to have made this journey in your company.