eyes wide shut? lets open them

[sophie1]

May be my feeling that I am not 100% clear relates to the fact that old conditioning still plays role and make me react in old ways.
I don't find anything g in me that can be responsible

[MerlinC]

That depends, what in you can be 100% clear?

[sophie1]

I am talking about identity shift from self to no self. To answer your question, nothing in me because there is no "me", I refer to no self reality becoming obvious and 100% clear. What happens is that in some situations it feels that nothing has changed and there are same identifications with thoughts and feelings. As you pointed out before, old conditioning still plays a role.

[MerlinC]

Being aware and stopping allows presence to be and the more that is allowed the more you will align with the truth.
You can't Be if you're reacting out of thoughts as a person so you have to grow awareness in you and that only happens if you practice being aware. Thoughts will obscure the truth if you don't bring attention to the truth, which is ultimately always here regardless of any passing thought. What's not obvious about being alive as simple as that sounds?, its the truth of your being which is always here no matter where you go. There's a pull towards thoughts but it weakens with awareness. you might think how do I become clear? but the shift is the understanding that you couldn't be more clear and you been on that path since you started to look at yourself with honesty.

[sophie1]

The more you practice being aware, the more you will align with the truth.Thoughts will obscure the truth if you don't bring attention to the truth, the truth of your being which is always here
There's a pull towards thoughts but it weakens with awareness

You are right. Lately, I became too busy with tasks and relationships and practice being aware less. That's why the sense of self is getting stronger. However, how do you find a balance in practicing awareness and completing tasks/ nourishing relationships.

you couldn't be more clear

At the beginning of our dialogue you told me that once you have seen through illusion there is no way back. So I assumed that there is a way to see through illusion with such a clarity that no thoughts could recreate it.

[sophie1]

Its like knowing a magic trick, once you see its an illusion after seeing how it's performed you don't get taken in by it. in this case the concept of a "ME"

Clarity for me is when I don'g get taken in by the concept of me.

[MerlinC]

You can't unsee thoughts not being a person when it hits but you can react out of the old way if you don't abide in the truth. I don't balance anything, I live life as usual like everybody else but I don't exhaust myself trying to be a good person or bad, right or wrong, I want to simply feel the peace that's already here. its all about simply being here and you can do that anywhere and the funny thing is you're never not doing it but you're giving all attention to thoughts.
wheres life when your thinking?

[sophie1]

Life is in everything that happens at the moment including thinking.
So if you do something labeled by thoughts as "not ethical" is not bad and not wrong?

[MerlinC]

What allowed it in the first place to occur?
what does life have to say about doing something wrong when you listen closely for the answer?

[sophie1]

Awareness allowed it to occur.
It doesn't give me an answer. What answer does it give to you?

[MerlinC]

The same thing, but what would that mean?

[sophie1]

I don't know... What does it mean for you?

[MerlinC]

what argues with what is?

[sophie1]

Thoughts argue with what is ... sorry for delayed answer. I am away from my home and the internet connection is bad and not always available.

[MerlinC]

Thats fine, and who are thoughts apart of