Good evening Sebastian,
Sorry for the misspelling. Auto correction making me crazy here.
Don't worry about this. i can work it out or i'll ask you.
In fact the decider seems to be believed very much here supported by huge amaount of fear.
Ah, the decider IS the constructed self. The armour to protect you from all of the monsters that conditioning has instilled. That fear is not your enemy. It is the organism's best solution, given that it doesn't have any other tools and given how real those monsters seem.
How to unveil the idea of being the decider and contoler of what is happening in life?
We don't need to get rid of the "decider and controller". They have a useful role. We simply need to see that the illusion is not anything actual. That way we stop responding to the story in a compulsive way.
Others will still imagine that you are deciding and controlling, only you will know that it's perception only.
Making decisions soaked attention very deep into story today.
Ok, that's fine. That's not the issue. The ONLY thing that is relevant is DID YOU NOTICE IT, and did you laugh when you saw it had happened? Don't gloss over these words. Let them sink in. - What is important here?
That seemed to appear the doer very real again evoking fest and doubt.
Rephrase this to say that the illusion was strong..
How do decisions happen without making them?
The answer is the same for any happening.
..and that is that it's in the realm of quantum physics, so for our puny mind it is unknowable.
For practical purposes, they just happen.
Here's a story that might give the mind some satisfaction.
A useful concept is conditions. For the sake of satisfying mind, we can say that any event requires the conditions that enable it. For example, for me to be here typing these squiggles on a screen, an obviously necessary condition is the presence of the computer. Consider the conditions required for a computer to come into existence.
Another condition is that this organism has to have experiences that include schooling.
Going back further, another condition is that my parents conceived me. ..and the conditions required that meant that they themselves were conceived and had all of their life experiences exactly as they did to be able to have and raise me exactly as they did.
If we follow this line then we can extrapolate back to every ancestor and the conditions that enabled them to not only procreate but to provide the conditions for their offspring to do the same.
In order to be born, i needed:
2 parents
4 grandparents
8 great-grandparents
16 second great-grandparents
32 third great-grandparents
64 fourth great-grandparents
128 fifth great-grandparents
256 sixth great-grandparents
512 seventh great-grandparents
1,024 eighth great-grandparents
2,048 ninth great-grandparents
For you to be born today from 12 previous generations,
i needed a total of 4,094 ancestors over the last 400
years. ..and of course this goes back to the beginning of existence.
If we go back hundreds of generations, we can even say that some of the conditions required were the food and shelter that enabled them to provide future generations with the necessary conditions.
That food required conditions to exist.
Even the butterfly in the Amazon is tied in with conditions necessary for me to be here doing this.
In fact, there is no thing, no event, no anything since the beginning of existence (& maybe before this) that isn't a necessary condition for this happening.
Change any one condition and
this would be different.
As profound as this is, it is not saying that these conditions are part of something. It's like a hologram. The total is made up of totals. Every (apparent) part is everything. A single piece of stardust floating galaxies away is a necessary condition for THIS.
Nothing stands alone. Everything is connected. All is One.
..and as good as all this sounds, it's just a story.
Not Sure if I am ready for these questions yet. Illusion is still strong here. Getting entangled with thoughts pretty much.
Ok, go through them and list the areas where there is doubt and we'll concentrate on them.
with love
vince