Lifting the veil

[Seeker01]

Hi JP,

Can you accept all your experiences , blissful, mundane, even unpleasant, as all part of the same unfolding of life ?

Yes- that is certainly good advice. I can see that. I have tried.

Yesterday, I felt that because I wasn’t ‘trying’ I was moving away from awareness. I was busy gardening, and unless I was actively ‘trying’ it seemed I was just in thoughts. This is a common direction of my in and out of a spiritual practice. Awareness arose and then because I wasn’t chasing it, hanging on to it, it sort of regressed into the background.

This morning, however, I sat down to meditate (just sitting meditation) and just watched my mind and listened to the sounds and the silence. Not trying too hard and not trying to make something happen, and I just allowed the everyday to be there. A sort or realisation arose.

Firstly, I see I am trying to force the stillness to enable awareness to arise rather than allowing awareness to arise that leads to stillness. Does that make sense? Also, I felt sensations and watched my mind label them ‘boredom’, ‘annoyance’ etc. and sort of realised that this was life unfolding too- not just the blissful stuff.

Nothing is triggering me lately. It is just very clear that there is a mind, and thoughts labelling sensations so they just pass.
I have no idea why I still have this sense that I haven’t found what I’m looking for.

With love
Sarah

[indranet]

Sarah,

not trying to make something happen, and I just allowed the everyday to be there.

Yes, the interesting thing is that the idea that you can make anything happen is really an illusion.

I know I got you on the track of looking for the silence/ beingness, but ultimately that is a sort of trick.

That sense of being is just the way existence feels when it's unfiltered by the mind.

The only thing you can do is surrender completely to the moment, which paradoxically is doing nothing.

I feel it is all naturally unfolding for you ,relax into it, even the uncertainty and doubts.

with love
J.P

[Seeker01]

Hi JP,

I have listened to your advice, and just relaxed into it. Not trying to make anything happen, but accepting presence when it wants to arise.
I have noticed some changes. Whereas before there seemed to be space between things, more often now there seems to be just space and things arise from it; it has sort of switched.

Thoughts are there and I’m not trying to stop them, but I am bigger than the thoughts. Before, when thoughts came, they were dominant. Now, thoughts arise and they seem small compared to the vastness of myself.
In meditation, the body and mind fall away and there is nothing left but the vastness, and the thoughts pop in like the sounds outside. In fact, the stillness inside me is the same as the stillness outside, and the sounds outside seem no different really to the sounds of my thoughts.
I feel a sort of quiet happiness and equanimity all of the time, but I am not trying to chase it.
I will just continue relaxing into the experience and see what happens.
Thank you JP. Your guidance is making such a difference.

With love
Sarah

[indranet]

Sarah,


Very nice!


Whatever you are (not) doing seems to be working.


with love

J.P