Hi Bananafish :-),
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No, there is no self to be found anywhere and there never was.
2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
The illusion of separate self begins in the early childhood when we identify with the label that has been given to us, the name, with the body, with the thoughts, that, we no longer see ourselves or anything around us as it truly is, it becomes the label. To see that there is no “I” anywhere is freeing.
3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
There is so much peace and a feeling of being home is there now. The major difference from the start of this guidance is that there is a great deal more relaxation and ability to be here now. This is because sensations and thoughts that were believed to belong to an “I” are no longer believed as belonging to “I” – they just are. It is easier now to experience thoughts and sensations when they arise in AE without identifying with them – which used to cause a lot of suffering.
4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
The place I used to get stuck the most was, when I was interacting with people around me. I used to get triggered by their fear, anger, frustration. Then there was a realization that there was never anyone out there. In the direct experience there were only images, all I ever met was the content of the thoughts, which was not the actual experience.
5) Can you talk about decision, intention, free will, choice and control? What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.
There is no free will, choices to make, nor any control over anything. Things just happens, thoughts arise, body moves, sensations appear. I am not responsible for anything nor anybody else is responsible for anything too.
6) Anything to add?
I would like to thank you wholeheartedly for your guidance and for the patience you showed in answering all the questions :-). I am so grateful.
Thank you so much,
Regards
Sush