The Gate

Awareness is just aware. Its a no-thing. but what gives "things" existence

your saying that you don't know, is actually true.
but let's have a look closer here, is awareness giving "things" existence?
is there awareness separate from seen, as in color? is there awareness separate from sounds that are being heard right now? is awareness some kind of container, space for things?

this article may be useful. http://liberationunleashed.com/what-is-awareness/

sending love

So If Im all alone out here, in the middle of nowhere. How are all of you possible?

Very good question.
You say: I'm all alone? What's the I here? How many separate lives are out there?
Are there separate selves running separate bodies?

In this present moment, here now, what is alone?


Sending love.

experience is all alone.

Alone? Is experience alone or experience of aloness is being noticed?

Can you find a container of aloness?

hmmm. so then who is noticing what is or isn't?

obviously there is one mind, experiencing different things.

Question who is a trickster, it assumes a subject. It assumes that a concept is the doer.
Can you see that?

Well yes. there is no "person". But there is still something. I cant point at it any other way. but I am always present.

I am always present. Yes to that. Being. (Verb)
Find that sense of being and see if you are doing it or its on by default?
Is there a being?
Or sense of aliveness?
Is there a centre of being?

Sending love.

okay yea, I get that im not doing anything. There is no one doing the living. Life is just alive. Events are taking place, and no one is behind it. This is obvious. But still. There is "thing" that perceives itself. Behind it all, there is "X" that perceives all else. CAll it "nothing" noticing "somethings" or whatever. Moment to moment, things are happening. to no one. but even no one, is a thing. call it a thing, or a process, or emptiness. Aliveness, is alive.

It does sound like you are creating something out of nothing. As in zero is not a zero, but something more than zero. Can you find a perceiver of sound? Here now, listen and see if there is listener separate from sound?
Is there a gap between hearer, heard and hearing?
Have a look, don't just assume that there must be. What do you find?

Sending love.

So recently, theres been an odd thing happening. Kind of like I got a peek out of what was back stage. There wasn't a whole lot. But its fleeting. Also Im starting to notice the stage people set in social situations, everyone is setting up a stage, and other people either play into it or maintain there own stage. It feels like staring in from the outside.

interesting.. can you write more?

Ive been practicing meditation lately. doing 2 hour sit downs daily. Might crank it up to 3. I just focus on a point on the wall, and breathe. Whether or not this will help me "wake up", who knows. The way I see it, all this talk about waking up, is just talk about more concepts. Who am I trying to convince, that I am asleep, or I am awake? There is no body. There is just breathing, sensations, lights, colors, but it all comes together to create the reality we that we are. In a sense, I am the "universe". I am a nobody. But I am everything. meditation makes the "situation" more apparent. Then thinking about it. Experiencing what already is, seems to be snapping me out of it. The good news, I am limitless. The bad news, the more I practice, the more I can see through everything. People in my life are becoming nothing more then patterns/behaviuors/methods of expression. Its like the micro expressions give everyone away. At the same token, any "social anxiety" I had before is gone. I hope this benefits who ever reads it. But even then, this is just another script. Theres always a game going on. The ego is very necessary, in order to fulfill the roles. But behind the mask, is only energy. or whatever.