Who says it is going to be a big crash.
No one...but somehow I think it would be something that I notice (not necessary a big bang, but something that is relatively clear seen) :)
Good morning to you, and good morning to good old me...which is back this morning in all his glory, some hard, unpleasant dreams and waking with me on my side. Lot of work today, will watch what you gave me for homework whenever is possible.
Until now the breathing I notice in two ways, one is when I notice it not at all, just later I see I'm breathing and my mind fills the gaps of unawareness (I must have been breathing all the time) and secondly when I watch my breathing it seams I have a pretty strong control over it, faster, slower, pause if I wish...I have the feeling I control it at will. So untill now it looks like two kind of operation...autonomus and if I wish controled. I tried but failed to notice like in movement off the hand an certain independance like the me can just watch and it is happening. There is an exepcion...the time I controle is limited as my thoughts begin to wander and forget about the breathing and it goes to autonomus automatically, or when I try to hold it forever....well of course after some time when I am chooking :) the I gives up and breathing begines again...
Hearing and seeing I have not explored so much. Little of hearing, the sound is noticed...before thoughts begine to classify (far away, close, cause...), then it is pure and just existing...sometime I feel it when a sound of birds come...suppose there is not so much to classify, just the mind says...aha a bird, and there sometimes I feel just a sound.
In seeing...well it's always arround and very persuaisive...I mean so conected with thinking, so fast changing and so soone after seeing the thinking is attached that separation is almost not noticable....at night before sleep...yesterday...it was so beautifull...just what was, window, open door, clear lines, orange damped coloure of the night....clear and perfect, just it...and thinking was not strong, first yesterday there was some change in my perception and secondly before sleep the mind was additionally silenced preparing for sleep :). But it is seldom that I expirience such thing normally...I will look further.
Have a beautifull day
