exorito, let's have a chat.

[exorito]

now thought's are ...

but main difference seems to be that choice is easier, because
those - lot of thoughts just are, and it's finally like "ok, whatever"
and choice is made with more relax. because there is knowing that when I will do something, and thoughts appear I'm not in them, I'm not in choice, Im not in being feeling relaxed, and it's wow, what a weird world :)

not so much struggle now.

and I can see what is in this experience more clearly because I don't follow some home made amateur porno FUCKED UP MIND MOVIE! (and I can say I because...hehhee, this all thing is weird and funny, but 'wow' - thoughts are just appearing and (pauza, nothig...nothing...) some thoughts of writing are writing this words, and hands are working great , and energy in body is felt)

so it all is - without attaching to that something that does not exist - "lovely ,beautiful me" :)

last push...
don't really know, but seemed to be when I thought that I'm nothingness in with everything appears,so there is no me, but I appear as life, so I'm everything - but no me in a sense of this body, mind ....it just is....I'am bigger :):)

and then you write

Life is but it's not you.
God is but it's not you.
Reality is but it's not you.

and I thought! fuck! why why why????? noooo!!!!!

so some feeling of - I can't made it! it just not possible.

and then release...

but if you feel some shit please feel free to write.

I'm so grateful that you work with me, you have no idea how.

please feel free to run through the city shouting, "I am a fucking goddess!"

you are.

namaste-nomistakes! everything is. just one mistake - me!

why 'me'? maybe we will know how it happend. any idea?

[exorito]

It's my pleasure to assist and I'm really delighted that you poped :)
Thank you.
Hihi, I'm not gonna run around proclaiming myself a goddess. Tempting, but lol, yes, it is funny to see how it all works. I think
We got the illusion through language. As we have learned to speak and mimicked parents behaviour it became a default condition. Never to be questioned until it happens. The mind is resolving itself.

I love to read accounts of fresh seeing. People notice different subtle things. And each has got that uniqueness.


Would you post a rant, an account on what hapoen ed, how it is now on out thread and I can make you blue. Then you can join our groups and get to know everyone behind the forum.

It really is the most exiting ride.
It's called living free :)

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so I'm here in this place, where seeing is, and life didn's change a

bit :)

"nooooooooo, whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?" - you saaay - "I want

unpleasure feelings and stuff go away, isn't it a cure????"

seeing is seeing.

it is like seeing a movie where everything is - outside inside as one -

body, seeing hearing, shiting (all kinds of shitiing :] ), and then

"you" - finally as a thought in it. but nowhere...

and then...it is like "oooookkkk weee are unscrewing it all"
everything is finally not yours...."everything ?" yup..."even

observation, and those horrible feelings" - yup - "not mine?"- yup

it can't stick anymore.

so slowly slowly fall off

and then...

fuck you!

fuck me.

let's see what is going to happen....

[Ilona]

Exorito, can you give us a final rant on following questions:
Is there a self, was there ever? What is human condition as you see it? How do we get a self and what it does to human life? How does it feel to see through illusion?