The Gate

Again, how does it FEEL?

It feels soft. Without effort. Like the breeze or photosynthesis for plants.

Good. Again, that's the truth feeling.

Let's do another pointer. This one you'll do for a while.

This is the only pointer Ilona gave me when I was guided here. i practiced this for about 3 months. I call it:

ButtChair

Please LOOK for any place where your butt ends & the chair begins.

Is there any clear dividing line between them? Or only the Sensation with no clear division?


It is simple direct & nonverbal. Just LOOK.

Then write what is true.

Loving,

I can absolutely try for 3 months but I’ll share initial findings and then check in when it feels right.
Butt is in a chair. Chair is meeting the butt. There feels like division but only when I think about it. Direct experience is sensations only: pressure in some areas, cool spots, and a sensation of object meeting object.

With dog, it feels less “object-y.” Exchanging warmth, feeling of touch.

Will continue during this camp trip!

So. division or no division?

It helps to check on regularly.

Loving

Connection. Not, division.

The more I relax or meet the earth, the more the earth/chair/bed meets me in support.
No “clear division” like watching fire: no division between wood and ash. Big moon last night eliciting lightness and connection--this one is less describable as it would mean telling stories.
Camp friend says word “butt cheeks” (not chair) and brought you to mind immediately!

Sweet.

Pay attention. It may be subtle. Here's something Ilona wrote about that recently.

From an email from Ilona

Nothing dramatic happened.

There were no fireworks.
No permanent bliss states.
No sudden personality changes.

And yet, something shifted.


Here are a few things people said afterwards:

“I’m not fighting my experience anymore. There’s more space around everything.”

“I expected something big to happen. Instead, life feels simpler and I trust myself more.”

“There’s less urgency. The seeking has softened.”


This is the kind of shift this work supports.

Ilona Cuinate


Loving,

Stacy

Good morning, Stacy.
Just curious and figured I’d ask. Is there anyone who can message about dream content?

That's fine.

Is there anyone who can message about dream content?

No. That's just more content of thought. Not real & not useful here at all. Not useful anywhere, really. Just more made up stories .

Loving,

Thank you!

Yesterday was a whirlwind. There were lots of thoughts and emotions. Lots of resistance and hardly any settling. A moment of tearfulness.
Small shifts throughout the night. Waking in the middle of another dream but not grasping at it. Waking in the morning and before I started thinking, just simmering in the awareness under the thoughts and feelings. Took time in that space and just “was.”
This morning the insight was how beautiful for a quick reminder how quickly things can get lost. How effort shows up as patterns. How seeking turns into doing.
Going to practice this week without wearing a watch and to trust instead. Even if that trust includes showing where gripping returns.
There’s a feeling here that feels oddly familiar as I share. Seeking validation maybe? No need to answer, Stacy. The ambiguous space of not knowing “what’s next/what’s the next stage” is exactly where things need to be (where the me programming and the trusting “line” seems to battle).

Just relax & LOOK.

Ignore the dreams. They don't mean anything.

https://youtu.be/wyNwhK2Ur1c?si=TZwuFEst-7Hsadpu

Loving

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Thank you,

FYI if you're interested.

Seeing Through The Self Illusion

20th of August
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With love,

Ilona