The Gate

Find the knower

Hi Hendrik

How are you doing?

What's happening these days?
Are you feeling free or are you identified with a separate self?

Hope you're well either way

Love

Pop

Dear Pop,

the task "find the knower" was the right one - still there is identification ... even though it lessens.

The last days I "did" inqiry even more.

Love

Hendrik

Dear Pop,

thank you for your patience.

... some more inquiry happend...

So there is knowing and sensations that "suggest" something like a knower.

A knower cannot be found inside the body. There is no part of the body where a knower lives. And there is no part outside the body where a knower lives.

The sensations of "the knower" are seen/perceived from a "place" that is different from "where" the sensations are - so even they are known.

I always thought that the feelings of a knower etc. have to have vanished to see that there is no me. This thought is perceived as well.

So sensations happen and are seen/known - but I cannot find a me doing that.

Much Love
Hendrik

Hi Hendrik

Nice to hear from you

The sensations of "the knower" are seen/perceived from a "place"

Ok now look at this place. Find it in your direct experience.
Look backwards at it, poetically speaking.
What is it? Where is it?

🙏

Pop

Hi Pop,

hm.... this thing "space" does not really exist. There is no location from where seeing happens. Seeing happens for sure but I cannot find a place or space.

There is no really idea how I can "look backwards" (pure mind talking in my head...): when I try to "look backwards" or better: just do it - there is nothing or a blackness.

Yesterday morning there was a short moment when I (?) "surrendered" all perception and there was briefly a blackness in that nothing was.

Love
Hendrik

Dear Pop,

... it is everywhere and nowhere ...

Love Hendrik

Hi!

OK. Go outside and watch everything moving about....
Is there a notice separate from the noticing?
Don't go to thought for the answer. Look at your immediate experience and tell me.




Love

Pop

Hi Pop,

noticing makes the noticed / notice happen. Noticing happens automatically.

I cannot find a separation. It happens spontaneously.

It is a being in which everything is noticed.

Love
Hendrik

... so "allowing" to happen what happens or doesn´t happen opens the "door" into freedom and just being?

... and all the energies that the character traits are made of are reactive patterns popping up/occuring in this being that is here. This being is not personal.

Love Hendrik

Hi!

noticing makes the noticed / notice happen....
in this being that is here. This being is not personal.

So there is some separation?

Love

Pop

Hi Pop,

hm.... there is no demarcation in the seeing that would separate.

Love
Hendrik

Hi Hendrik

There is no "I'.
Is this true. Do you see this?

Love

Pop

Dear Pop,

a happy, fulfilled, healthy and blessed year to you.

Some days were spent on La Palma - nice and warm. That time was used for inquiry too, which is done on a daily basis, or better: every moment if possible.

So I see: there is no I in the meaning of a self.

- "I" is a word. The word does not constitute a self.
- pictures of a body don´t do as well.
- the different sensations to be felt have no self as well.

A sense of "I" is still there. When looked at it it is just made of sensations. The sensations do not constitute a self. Behind them is nothing.

Presence as well is perceived. That what perceives it has no own qualities - at least I cannot find some.

There was an expectation that "everything" has to change or I have to feel "lighter" or whatever. That all are thoughts being perceived while they rise and subside. What is left is space.

I cannot tell wheather I am "there" - because that is a thought too.

There is more "here-ness".

Love

Hendrik

Dear Pop,

hope you are well. You did not respond to the last post. Maybe you think, I lost interest - there still is :-)

By chance I came accross the page "headless.org". This again turned something.

So there is nobody doing the seing. Seing happens.

Love

Hendrik