jacki

[Quincy]

Hi Stacy,

A lot of thoughts, judgements and resistance coming up. Trying to just notice and not react.

Love,
Jacki

[Anastacia42]

Just feel them. Don't try to change anything.

Can you do that?

Loving,

[Quincy]

Yes, I can. Absolutely.

Thank you

[Quincy]

Hi Stacy,

I hope you are doing well.

I'm feeling more clear.

Love,
Jacki

[Anastacia42]

Good. Can you say 100% there's no separate "self?"

If so. are you ready for checkpoint questions?

Loving,

[Quincy]

Can you say 100% there's no separate "self?"

If you mean has there been a shift? No. There is a "thought self" that blabs on in the mind. It comes and goes with thought.
There is a Self that is always there. The sense of I or Being, that has always been there, ever since I can remember. It's fundamental. Doesn't come and go. I can touch into it. I could call it Presence. But no shift that has lasted, so not 100%

If so. are you ready for checkpoint questions?

Without a fundamental shift I guess I'm not.

No worries. The seeking has softened so much. I am resting in "Being" as much as I can. I know it's already here.

[Anastacia42]

That is probably not a "self " since there is no such thing.

Mind & thoughts will continue.

Awareness is not a "self."

Are you confusing awareness with the nonexistent "self?"

First I want to tell you that I had a real taste of awakening yesterday. All I can say about it is that it was obvious that it was already here and I laughed out loud, just as you said. It did not last long but that's ok. I know that it's here and I will find my way through. It was not a realization of no self, just a realization of the presence that's already here. This is the only was I can describe it. It was pre-verbal. There were really no words for it except that it was obvious and in a way nothing special. I had a little bit of an exhilarating feeling but that passes

This is the kind of shift we're looking for.

Loving,

[Anastacia42]

I'm trying to set up a new phone. If I don't reply, I could be in the middle of that.

[Quincy]

Are you confusing awareness with the nonexistent "self?"

Awareness is not a self at all. There are a lot of labels for things so I'm sorry if I am confusing terms. Awareness I would call Presence or Awakeness, but I would prefer to not use labels.
The shift I had last Sunday was definitely "it." It was just so fleeting, but made me "know" something I didn't know before, or realize what had always been there. But I can't describe it very well. It was an experience. Experiences come and go. When the shift occurs, I think it will be more than that fleeting experience.

Good luck with your phone!

Love,
Jacki

[Anastacia42]

Hi,

Phone seems to be set up now.

would prefer to not use labels.

How will you communicate here, if you don't use some labels?

The shift I had last Sunday was definitely "it." It was just so fleeting, but made me "know" something I didn't know before, or realize what had always been there.

Yes. It will come & go. Haven't you seen this?

Watch these, please:

https://youtu.be/vJQcD588g2w

and

https://youtu.be/PUDzrCLlrj4

As I just wrote to someone else,

This is just a beginning.

You seem to be expecting something different. Asking Santa Claus to take his red suit off over & over when you've already seen he's just a man in a suit.

Can you relax into knowing & trusting what you've seen even when you have selfing thoughts?


Loving

[Quincy]

Hi Stacy,

How will you communicate here, if you don't use some labels?

Yes of course. Language is all we have so we have to use some labels.

The videos were very helpful. They were even more helpful this time.

You seem to be expecting something different. Asking Santa Claus to take his red suit off over & over when you've already seen he's just a man in a suit.

I love your directness! I feel like I was hit over the head! That was great!

Can you relax into knowing & trusting what you've seen even when you have selfing thoughts?

I think so. You're right. I was expecting something that would have lasted longer, and that is a thought. The insight was so brief, and that was disappointing, which is also a thought. I don't doubt the insight itself, it just closed up so fast that I felt that I lost something, but I know that's not possible.
I have been resting in being, just like Ilona said in the video, as much as possible. I go back and forth, so I assume the insight will clarify over time.

Love,
Jacki

[Anastacia42]

Glad you liked it, but I'll be happier when you can say 100% there's no separate "self."

We're looking for knowing not insight. Seeing the truth of no self & letting go of the lie thought that says there is "self." Keep noticing that your gut feeling guides you.

Tight = Lie

Relaxed = Truth

Loving,

[Quincy]

I will stay relaxed and continue to look.

[Quincy]

Hi Stacy,

I hope you are doing well.

Just checking in. Nothing interesting to report.

Love,
Jacki

[Anastacia42]

Doing fine.

It may or may not be interesting. In fact, it can be downright boring. :)

Loving,