The Gate

Hi dear Agate,

"Now, notice—without this belief, what is here? :)"

"When I look – nothing. Just things arising. But there is also a low-level anxiety, to be honest. I try not to attach any story to it. It feels like an effort.

"

Mmm, let’s shift the lens:
When you look—only Me, Divinity, is playing. Nothing is apart.
Look around: who is looking at whom?

"I’m finding that emotions are often caused by getting involved with thoughts that come up—i.e., from the belief that there is a persona."

Yes. Let’s break through it together.

Be with me in this simple seeing:

It’s just an idea, only an idea—nothing more than the idea of a "persona" !

Take a pen in your hand—literally!
—and let this pen represent that false idea: “me, the persona.”

Now start noticing and writing on paper, like this:

“Thoughts appear from Divinity to Divinity — fresh, fresh.”
And this pen / idea 'owns" that - but how idea/pen can own something?

“Emotions — where do they come from? When do they arise?”
Write: “Emotions are pure energy, moving from Divinity to Divinity.”

“Seeing, looking — it’s all happening from Divinity to Divinity.”

And only this “pen-idea” is pretending there is a persona.
Can you see how that idea isn’t real?
That this pen cannot own anything here because doesn't exist at all? :)
And what is truly here—you Divinity itself?

"I would like this. Thank you for your guidance so far!"

Beautiful. What is your time zone?
I’m in France.

With love,
Lubo

Hi Lubo

Mmm, let’s shift the lens:
When you look—only Me, Divinity, is playing. Nothing is apart.
Look around: who is looking at whom?

Yes I see this I think .. the trying not to attach narrative to the low-level anxiety - that in itself is a story. So it’s ok to notice this process of the mind (looking for a story) and see it as Divinity playing ?
What/who is it doing the noticing ?

And only this “pen-idea” is pretending there is a persona.
Can you see how that idea isn’t real?
That this pen cannot own anything here because doesn't exist at all? :)

Yes I can see this. The idea of a persona persists though somehow.

And what is truly here—you Divinity itself?

I’m not sure I can see this. I wonder if it’s so obvious and somehow I’m missing something ?

Re time zone, I’m in London. Wednesday can be a good time.
Thank you
Agate

Hi Agate,

"...the trying not to attach narrative to the low-level anxiety"

Let’s look together — is what you're feeling simply an experience…or is it shaped by the belief in a persona, trying to solve a problem?

You are not the persona already — so what is the problem? Let’s look there.
What arises when you notice you are not the persona, and yet difficulties are still experienced?
Let’s look honestly, feel it together, and dissolve it — and then see what remains, what is left.
What is coming?

"And what is truly here—you, Divinity itself?""I’m not sure I can see this. I wonder if it’s so obvious and somehow I’m missing something?"

Yes — it’s the most erotic experience!

Can you notice, right now...Are you experiencing yourself as the eyes seeing life?
Or something else?

You may feel anxiety, joy, or numbness —but are you what you feel.
So… what do you feel you are?

"Re: time zone, I’m in London. Wednesday can be a good time."

Beautiful.How about Wednesday at 7pm my time (France)?

With love,
Lubo

Hi Lubo

Let’s look together — is what you're feeling simply an experience…or is it shaped by the belief in a persona, trying to solve a problem?

No, I think it is somehow shaped by the belief in a persona.

You are not the persona already — so what is the problem? Let’s look there.
What arises when you notice you are not the persona, and yet difficulties are still experienced?
Let’s look honestly, feel it together, and dissolve it — and then see what remains, what is left.
What is coming?

When I notice that I am not the persona - there is actually not a problem. Life seems richer and also emptier at the same time . The contrast with the illusion of a persona (and its accompanying problems ) is big.

Can you notice, right now...Are you experiencing yourself as the eyes seeing life?
Or something else?

I can experience myself as both . But when I look I’m not behind there’s seeing life …. What is left is just Life and there is no experiencer.

You may feel anxiety, joy, or numbness —but are you what you feel.
So… what do you feel you are?

No, I’m not what I feel. There is dimply anxiety or joy arising - no need to be identified with it. I don’t feel I am anything except maybe the stillness and peace .

Re the zoom call. I can’t do 7pm as I’m working. I can do any time except between 12.30pm and 3.30pm and 6.30-8.30pm. I’m available at all the other times though.

Thank you Lubo for your guidance !
Agate

Hi dear Agate,

When I notice that I am not the persona - there is actually not a problem. Life seems richer and also emptier at the same time . The contrast with the illusion of a persona (and its accompanying problems ) is big.

YES!!! You know this — like the classic metaphor: it’s not a snake, it’s a rope.
You just saw it: illusion and reality.
There’s no snake here — only the innocent beauty of the rope.
And the moment you see this, the fear vanishes. Problems disappear — because they belonged to the snake.
So relax, smile… and enjoy this precious gift that’s even more beautiful than the illusion of “real life.”

I can experience myself as both . But when I look I’m not behind there’s seeing life …. What is left is just Life and there is no experiencer.

This is a subtle and sacred moment.
Yes — there’s only Life… yet also notice:
Life is changing — but the one who knows this cannot change.

Can the eyes know what’s in the visual field?
Or are the eyes just part of what’s being seen?

Now — with eyes closed — feel into the quiet knowing of Life…
That still presence behind the screen.
That’s home. Rest there.

5 pm my time — perfect?

With love,
Lubo

Hi Lubo

YES!!! You know this — like the classic metaphor: it’s not a snake, it’s a rope.
You just saw it: illusion and reality.
There’s no snake here — only the innocent beauty of the rope.
And the moment you see this, the fear vanishes. Problems disappear — because they belonged to the snake.
So relax, smile… and enjoy this precious gift that’s even more beautiful than the illusion of “real life.”

Yes I feel like it’s becoming more clear . Or - what’s becoming clear is the nature of the mind … its restlessness. Believing the mind and thoughts is where the insanity lies. Because I’ve been doing this process I’m noticing more more the stillness and fullness of “real life” but I have to keep reminding myself - it’s not there all the time.

Can the eyes know what’s in the visual field?
Or are the eyes just part of what’s being seen?

The eyes interactively know what’s in the visual field - the process is just part of what’s being seen .

Now — with eyes closed — feel into the quiet knowing of Life…
That still presence behind the screen.
That’s home. Rest there.

I try to do this as much as I can. I get sucked into the narrative all the time. It’s relentless . I can see it’s like a survival mechanism … it’s compulsive . I feel less resistance because I know this is the nature of mind and why it’s doing it. I am learning that I’ve actually been “fight and fix” mode for my whole life. I still haven’t quite processed that. I can see probably most people are like this for their whole lives. I don’t want this for myself .

Yes 5pm on Wednesday is perfect !
Agate

Hi Agate,
Beautiful.

"The eyes interactively know what’s in the visual field – the process is just part of what’s being seen."

Hmm… are you sure the eyes know?
Look at them in the mirror — do the eyes know anything?
Are they someone? Something? A subject… or simply part of what’s being seen?

"I know this is the nature of mind and why it’s doing it. I am learning that I’ve actually been in 'fight and fix' mode for my whole life."

A sacred bow — to the mind!
How the mind feels now?

No need to fix anything.
You can rest now — without fighting.

And in that resting…
What is actually revealed here?
What’s quietly, effortlessly going on?

Come home —
Rest in that still presence behind the screen.

Can you sense whether you, your presence, is the eyes and the visual field…
Or something deeper, more intimate, that holds them all?


Now gently close your eyes.
Feel the subtle warmth in your chest,
The quiet knowing behind all appearances.
Just notice — you’re already here.
No effort needed.
And notice is there persona running the show?

With love,
Lubo

Hi Lubo
I’ve had a very quiet, easy weekend so plenty of time to notice.

Hmm… are you sure the eyes know?
Look at them in the mirror — do the eyes know anything?
Are they someone? Something? A subject… or simply part of what’s being seen?

No - they are simply part of what’s being seen. They don’t know anything. But - the ilusion that there is a person looking out behind the eyes is persistent (even though I know it’s not real) It’s interesting how that idea exists and persists. I imagine (and hope ) that as the days go by the illusion becomes increasingly fragile ?

A sacred bow — to the mind!
How the mind feels now?

The mind feels a bit more relaxed . Every now and then I catch the low level anxiety and ask myself - what is there to worry about ? A lot of the time there is nothing to worry about . Previously, there was always something to be concerned about as it arose from how I or others are perceiving this persona .

And in that resting…
What is actually revealed here?
What’s quietly, effortlessly going on?

Life is endlessly going on. Just stuff happening. Including the mind just going its own thing.

Can you sense whether you, your presence, is the eyes and the visual field…
Or something deeper, more intimate, that holds them all?

It appears to be the visual field but the more I look I can see it is something else - it’s something deeper . If I stay with that well then the mind comes in and brings the illusion of a persona but it disappears again . I sense that this presence is something that’s always been here but I haven’t plugged into it that often ?

Now gently close your eyes.
Feel the subtle warmth in your chest,
The quiet knowing behind all appearances.
Just notice — you’re already here.
No effort needed.
And notice is there persona running the show?

I know that there is no persona running the show (life is just happening). But I’m not sure I’m always seeing that clearly . Can this be a gradual process? I find myself getting sucked into the drama but just as easily can remove and distance from it .

Thank you so much for your guiding Lubo !
Agate

Hi dear Agate,
I will alow my self to be more sharp if you don't mind :)
Loke here:

But - the ilusion that there is a person looking out behind the eyes is persistent (even though I know it’s not real)

and here:

I know that there is no persona running the show (

You want help from this "I know".
Look is there a unicorn in the room in this very moment?
Do you know that there isn't or you have divine power to realise that?
Notice "I know how things are" vs your nature AWARENESS.
Check your nature how effortless is. "Is there a unicorn in the room" ? check, notice is there effort or it is happening by itself?
Now in the same way:
There is life happening ONLY or there is much more and life is just appearance?
Use your nature !
Does this beauty Life knows that it is here in this very moment as it is?
is there persona running the show?
It is simple right? :)

See you tomorrow at 5 pm my time.
Here it is the link: https://meet.google.com/fst-sykh-crn

So much love to you,
Lubo

Hi Lubo

I will alow my self to be more sharp if you don't mind :)

I don’t mind at all. Please help me lol !

Look is there a unicorn in the room in this very moment?
Do you know that there isn't or you have divine power to realise that?

I know that there isn’t because I looked and found no unicorn

Notice "I know how things are" vs your nature AWARENESS.
Check your nature how effortless is. "Is there a unicorn in the room" ? check, notice is there effort or it is happening by itself?

There’s no effort in just checking - it’s effortless

There is life happening ONLY or there is much more and life is just appearance?
Use your nature !

There is just life happening. Life is certainly not just an appearance - it’s real. There isn’t much more to it (except the mind complicating it)

is there persona running the show?

No there isn’t !

It could be that I have an expectation that this process is difficult . So even when it’s easy I’m telling myself there’s got to be more to it than this ? There can be a lot of doubt as to whether I’m doing this correctly. Since I started this process it’s definitely got at least a bit clearer that there no entity running the show.

Looking forward to our meeting tomorrow
Agate

There is just life happening. Life is certainly not just an appearance - it’s real. There isn’t much more to it (except the mind complicating it)

Actually, there is something more – and at the same time, something much more simple.

So even when it’s easy I’m telling myself there’s got to be more to it than this ?

Yes – it feels easy, because all difficulty comes from the belief that there’s a problem, something wrong that needs fixing.
Without that belief, there’s no real “difficulty.”
Just to recognise what you are or what you are not.
We are looking that "I doesn't exist" but not that " I do not exist"
What is coming?

Let's continue with
Is there persona running the show - this is helping to realize, to discover/to become that what is here and it is not persona being/doing that. Without any doubt!

Close your eyes.
Notice the darkness.
Notice the breath.
And then simply notice: you are here.
And now - is there persona that is doing being that/here?
What is real – the darkness, or you?
Can the darkness exist by itself?

The same with the breath
Are you breath?
Who is here who is real?
is there the Breath that is here? The Breath that exist?

Now with eyes open:
You are here, you are real you exist, is there life that exist or you cannot find anything else but only you?

Is there really a persona here, being you – or are you simply here, without needing to be anyone?

feel the freedom to not be persona, body, alive, thinker, doer...nothing particular!

See you <3,
Lubo

Hi Lubo
Thank you so much for your time today. I really appreciate your guiding.

We are looking that "I doesn't exist" but not that " I do not exist"
What is coming?

Yes - I definitely DO exist … but I can’t define what is “I”. And “I doesn’t exist” put another way- the concept of there ever being an “I” meant exist ?

And now - is there persona that is doing being that/here?
What is real – the darkness, or you?
Can the darkness exist by itself?

There is no persona “doing” the being!
The darkness is not real but “I”am real.
No, the darkness cannot exist by itself .

Are you breath?
Who is here who is real?
is there the Breath that is here? The Breath that exist?

No, I’m not the breath - breathing happens by itself
Who is here ? I don’t know but it feels real - the being here-ness.
I’m not sure I understand the last question - yes the breath is just here ?

You are here, you are real you exist, is there life that exist or you cannot find anything else but only you?

I don’t understand- can you rephrase ?

Is there really a persona here, being you – or are you simply here, without needing to be anyone?

There’s no persona here, I’m simply here

Agate

Hi dear Agate,
Beautiful.

Who is here ? I don’t know but it feels real - the being here-ness.

Yes. With eyes open, the focus goes to “you,” but not to the visual field itself.
So where does the focus actually go?
What are you?

Love,
Lubo

Hi Lubo

So where does the focus actually go?

It goes somewhere peaceful where there’s nothing to do. But I can feel a subtle “pull” away from it.

What are you?

I still don’t know!


Love
Agate

So nice to see this:

"It goes somewhere peaceful where there’s nothing to do. But I can feel a subtle 'pull' away from it."

Somewhere peaceful where there’s nothing to do

— yes, this is IT.

Stay here.

It can help to listen on YouTube to a deep “OM” meditation —
and just stay in YOU,
at Home.

Notice… there is truly nothing to do.

Notice that this is the real.

And life — the moving parts, the drama — is not real.

From this space, you can shift your entire life…
effortlessly.
No need for thoughts about it.

“But I can feel a subtle pull away from it.”

Yes — this is the “I”-persona living a life.

This is Samsara.

The worldly life.

But it’s all illusion.

There is no worldly life.

There is only you.


And life — these pictures, these people, these events —
they revolve around you,
dancing to your whistle.

A beautiful metaphor:
Lord Krishna plays his flute,
and all beings, all things —
people, animals, even events —
they dance at His command.

So much love to you,
Lubo