Re: Thanks for existing
Posted: Tue Nov 14, 2023 6:43 pm
Hi Alan, I have this morning and afternoon off so I was able to spend a few hours on your questions
Looking feels like seeing with effort, and sometimes involves labeling what I see then matching those labels with an idea in my head. If I look for squares in the room, I will begin to see squares.
Noticing feels like a passive process. It kinda just happens.
When I first saw the texture, I felt like seeing, looking, and noticing were one.
Thank you for all of this, your questions have been a tremendous help
Jerry
Yes, I can see that shapes are a product of consciously discriminating what I see into labels.Can you see how the word "shape" is already a concept, a label that describes or is simply an interpretation of an "arrangement" of colors?
Initially, my eyes were drawn to certain areas on the cup which the mind labeled as contrast. I turned the cup to a different side and focused on taking it all in. Noticed a subtle texturing that I hadn’t consciously perceived before. Some time passed and I noticed my mind quiet down the more I was absorbed in the colors. Eventually, it stopped being a cup to me and the hands holding it began to slip away from being hands. Notably even an hour afterwards, the cup doesn’t feel like as much of a cup anymore.What happens in this experiencing?
No, it feels futile and tiring to even tryCan what is seen be in any way accurately described?
Sometimes, yes. There’s been thoughts labeling the shape as a cylinder, labeling of the brightness on some portions as light, and labeling a portion as a rim that is shiny and metallic.Are there thoughts labeling what you see? A handle perhaps, the lip, the shape of it?
Yes, though sometimes they’ve blended. Seeing seems to always be happening, and involves no conscious effort.Is there any distinction between seeing, looking and noticing for you?
Looking feels like seeing with effort, and sometimes involves labeling what I see then matching those labels with an idea in my head. If I look for squares in the room, I will begin to see squares.
Noticing feels like a passive process. It kinda just happens.
When I first saw the texture, I felt like seeing, looking, and noticing were one.
No, seeing is just happeningCan you find some specific thing that we can call a "me" doing the seeing?
It remained constant the entire time.Watch thoughts as you consider who is seeing. Notice what happens to seeing as you consider this. Did the seeing change in any way or stop?
They seem dim and alone. They constantly appear and fade but eventually don’t go anywhere or develop further.After a while of watching thoughts, what happens to them?
Yes, towards the end the cup once again did not seem like a cup anymore. Everything that was seen was still seen but it felt more-effortless and the surroundings became more visibleAs you watch the thoughts does the experience of seeing the cup change in any way?
Seeing feel more uninhibited and clear, it looks the same but different. There was a moment for only a few seconds where the space widened, and I felt a lurch of peace and bliss in my head sorta like the feeling in your stomach when you go down the first hill of a rollarcoaster. My experience feels quieter and more relaxed during the gaps.What happens in your experience as you attend to the spaces?
Within the seeing, there is no seer, there’s just seeing. Nor is there a seen, there’s just seeing. The “cup” I’ve been looking at this entire time is just seeing. Without the seeing, how could I know? I’m just seeing.As this seeing is happening, ask yourself "Is there a seer or a seen within or without the seeing?"
There’s only seeing and it seems abundantly clear, every time I’ve felt doubt it (and that’s been at least 10 times in the past 5 minutes) I just take a look.Or is there only seeing?
Used it with what we call a wallet. There’s a recognition of my associations with it such as purpose and contents, and that’s all in the context of what it actually is as seeing/sense. It’s easier to notice details/it seems more detailed than usual- the attention feels cheap. There’s some hiccups w/saying it’s merely seeing in my head instead of seeing it as seeing, but that seems temporary so far.Now do this with a flower (or any other object) and see what is experienced. Let me know what stands out for you.
Thank you for all of this, your questions have been a tremendous help
Jerry
