Are there separate/solid thoughts or just thinking without the content?
While they may appear separate, all there is to a thought is thinking, no content.
Yes. That’s the illusion :)
Indeed :)
Is there an entity of any kind – describable or indescribable – that is separate from whatever is happening/experiencing it? Do “you” exist outside of thoughts?
No and no. Nothing is separable from "the experiencing."
Focus on the feeling of am-ness/being, aliveness.
Can you tell if there is a being or just being?
Is life happening to a being or as being?
Is that “aliveness” any kind of object or subject? Is it even a human?
Is it what you've taken as "you"?
Just being, not "a being."
That aliveness is not an object or subject. "Human" is just a label.
This final question is very interesting. This understanding/perception has seemed to change even further, somewhat recently. There was a while when, "I am awareness, " or, "I am experiencing" made a lot of sense. I would have said, "Yes, I'm confident that's what I am. That feels right."
But now, it doesn't feel quite right. Even saying, "I am awareness," feels a bit off in a way I can't quite describe.
Let’s explore the “body”…
Exercises:
1. Take something cold from the fridge – like a can of cooldrink. When you touch the can, what does more accurately describe your experience:
a. Your fingers feeling cold because of touching a cold can; or
b. Coldness - sensation labelled “cold”? With eyes closed, where does the cold appear? Observe the order in which the details appear
2. Sit comfortably on a chair. Close your eyes and relax. Pay attention only to the feeling of your body. Just notice the pure sensations, without relying on thoughts or mental images. Keep your eyes closed and look:
Can it be known how tall the body is?
Does the body have a weight or volume?
In the actual experience does the body have a shape or a form?
Is there a boundary between the body and the chair? At the point where your body contacts the chair, are there two things there, a body and chair, or one, sensation?
Is it "my" body, or is it just a body?
Is there an inside or an outside? If there is an inside - the inside of what exactly? If there is an outside - the outside of what exactly?
What does the word/label ‘body’ ACTUALLY refer to? What is the ACTUAL experience of the body?
Can the 'body' do things?
1. "b." more accurately describes the experience.
2. It cannot be known how tall the body is. In direct experience, it does not have weight, volume, shape, or form. At the point of contact, there is just sensation. In direct experience, there is not "my body," just sensation. Even "a body" is labelling sensation too much. It's impossible to find the line that would separate inside from outside.
My actual, direct experience of the label body seems to refer to a "tingly-ness" of various intensities. It can feel as if the sensations are different, or located at a distance from each other, but whenever I try to find the boundary or gap between these seemingly distinct sensations, I can't find it.
The only description that seems mostly accurate of whether "the body" can "do things" would go something like this. In a relative sense, the body can seem to be engaged in different activities. In the sense of actual, direct, lived experience, there is just sensation of seemingly varied intensities.
It is all just sensation, but, for example, holding a cold can and sitting on a soft bed don't feel like "identical" sensations.
Thanks again, I really appreciate all your wonderful questions :)
Best,
Greg



